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So I think i've been avoiding writing in here because I don't feel like writing anything super personal anymore. However, I do want to record my progress so here it goes.
February - started stretching on an almost daily basis for 30 mins per day. Including some pushups (well... graduating to some. Starting at barely 1.) Started recording everything I ate that day... how I felt (energy levels), when I sleep, how many hours... basically as much info as I can manage to actually stick to writing down everyday. So far so good... I have about 3 weeks of daily journal-ling like this. Also started avoiding cheese too but I can't stay away! I've cut down sugar just based on seeing how much of it I eat and it reminding me of my diabetes scare in my teens. But I still can't seem to really minimize it... oh well.
March - It was around the end of February that I really noticed a difference but it was AMAZING. It dawned on me one day that I couldn't come close to what I was currently doing when I started. Flexibility-wise... but even with pushups, I can do about 10, 16 on my best day. That's starting from BARELY 1. All this stuff makes me really happy :)
I've been eating almost exclusively at home/food I made. (Un)fortunately I have been eating healthier and therefore haven't been experimenting as much with my meals. Literally tons of kamut wraps smothered in hummus I made with no tahini, plus veggies & daiya cheese. Veggie soups with quinoa, eggs on toast, and lots of steamed broccoli and kale. Oh and smoothies every day of course. Plus I take 3 different supplements, and I went off my birth control. I didn't realise birth control affected me in any way but let's just say it does for a few reasons. One of which is I lost a bit of weight, weird.
I love my little kitty cat more and more everyday... I am sooo OBSESSED with him. He's 5 months old and will be turning half a year old March 25th. My little baby is growing up soo fast. I was SO lucky because I actually managed to be there when he lost one of his teeth and now I have it!!!! I'm going to make a necklace with a tini little jar... and put his tooth in there so I can keep it for life. I haven't had the need to cut his sharp nails because he is soo gentle. He's perfect. I've been through so much in 2012 and I actually loathed that year more than any other year. I don't even want to talk about why right now because it fucking pisses me off even still. If I could blow up Pradyuminaslkdjs face I would happily do it. But honestly I can't go there right now. In the end, I lost money and peace of mind but he has to ... well, be HIM. That's punishment for sure.
So I went to my first session with the personal trainer! This really fit, lean and muscular gay guy named Greggory... who struts around the gym like a flaming homo and then bench presses more than all the strongest guys there. Bahahah. Mostly he just spent the day assessing me. So I am back down to 90lbs... my body fat is 2.8%. Apparently he has never seen that in his whole career and it's crazy, I have hardly any body fat at all. COOL, CAUSE I SURE EAT A LOT OF FAT :D I eat whole milk kefir everyday, cheese, heavy cream, creme fraiche, cupcakes with icing, ice cream.... Which just goes to show that non fat products suck for losing weight. Because they are not satisfying in any way. I just hope it doesn't affect my ability to gain strength as fast as possible. After his assessment though, we realized I am really not fit. I have a lot to work on lol. But that's okay... that's the fun part.
I missed school a lot really recently which makes me sad/anxious/upset. Actually it happened right after the preliminary trial. Just gotta catch up and work extra hard...
And last thing to say is... I have been totally anti social. But super focused. I feel like it has to be like that for me. Maybe I know the wrong people. But I don't want to spend my night awake until 5am or out drinking and then fucking up how I feel the next day, making myself less healthy. I really need to be as healthy as possible considering suboxone really negatively affects my energy levels. And I don't feel like I am missing out to be honest. If people want to join me with what I am doing then awesome, but I really don't have the TIME to do random things. My schedule is so insanely hectic for me. And it's weird, the more I try to do my own thing, the more dudes want to date me. Okay Zeus keeps leaning his head on the keyboard! I need to do laundry. But hopefully I can actually say that I have progressed a lot in a couple of weeks with Greggory :D
February - started stretching on an almost daily basis for 30 mins per day. Including some pushups (well... graduating to some. Starting at barely 1.) Started recording everything I ate that day... how I felt (energy levels), when I sleep, how many hours... basically as much info as I can manage to actually stick to writing down everyday. So far so good... I have about 3 weeks of daily journal-ling like this. Also started avoiding cheese too but I can't stay away! I've cut down sugar just based on seeing how much of it I eat and it reminding me of my diabetes scare in my teens. But I still can't seem to really minimize it... oh well.
March - It was around the end of February that I really noticed a difference but it was AMAZING. It dawned on me one day that I couldn't come close to what I was currently doing when I started. Flexibility-wise... but even with pushups, I can do about 10, 16 on my best day. That's starting from BARELY 1. All this stuff makes me really happy :)
I've been eating almost exclusively at home/food I made. (Un)fortunately I have been eating healthier and therefore haven't been experimenting as much with my meals. Literally tons of kamut wraps smothered in hummus I made with no tahini, plus veggies & daiya cheese. Veggie soups with quinoa, eggs on toast, and lots of steamed broccoli and kale. Oh and smoothies every day of course. Plus I take 3 different supplements, and I went off my birth control. I didn't realise birth control affected me in any way but let's just say it does for a few reasons. One of which is I lost a bit of weight, weird.
I love my little kitty cat more and more everyday... I am sooo OBSESSED with him. He's 5 months old and will be turning half a year old March 25th. My little baby is growing up soo fast. I was SO lucky because I actually managed to be there when he lost one of his teeth and now I have it!!!! I'm going to make a necklace with a tini little jar... and put his tooth in there so I can keep it for life. I haven't had the need to cut his sharp nails because he is soo gentle. He's perfect. I've been through so much in 2012 and I actually loathed that year more than any other year. I don't even want to talk about why right now because it fucking pisses me off even still. If I could blow up Pradyuminaslkdjs face I would happily do it. But honestly I can't go there right now. In the end, I lost money and peace of mind but he has to ... well, be HIM. That's punishment for sure.
So I went to my first session with the personal trainer! This really fit, lean and muscular gay guy named Greggory... who struts around the gym like a flaming homo and then bench presses more than all the strongest guys there. Bahahah. Mostly he just spent the day assessing me. So I am back down to 90lbs... my body fat is 2.8%. Apparently he has never seen that in his whole career and it's crazy, I have hardly any body fat at all. COOL, CAUSE I SURE EAT A LOT OF FAT :D I eat whole milk kefir everyday, cheese, heavy cream, creme fraiche, cupcakes with icing, ice cream.... Which just goes to show that non fat products suck for losing weight. Because they are not satisfying in any way. I just hope it doesn't affect my ability to gain strength as fast as possible. After his assessment though, we realized I am really not fit. I have a lot to work on lol. But that's okay... that's the fun part.
I missed school a lot really recently which makes me sad/anxious/upset. Actually it happened right after the preliminary trial. Just gotta catch up and work extra hard...
And last thing to say is... I have been totally anti social. But super focused. I feel like it has to be like that for me. Maybe I know the wrong people. But I don't want to spend my night awake until 5am or out drinking and then fucking up how I feel the next day, making myself less healthy. I really need to be as healthy as possible considering suboxone really negatively affects my energy levels. And I don't feel like I am missing out to be honest. If people want to join me with what I am doing then awesome, but I really don't have the TIME to do random things. My schedule is so insanely hectic for me. And it's weird, the more I try to do my own thing, the more dudes want to date me. Okay Zeus keeps leaning his head on the keyboard! I need to do laundry. But hopefully I can actually say that I have progressed a lot in a couple of weeks with Greggory :D