Keep My Heart Some Where Drugs Don't Go <3
okay. so im not sure that any of you care. but i do. i cant stand losing another person that i care about in my life.
i have 2 classes with this kid that grew up near rochester NY so we've been talking alot. it drives me crazy the way he talks about drugs all the time. ive told him its stupid & not something to be proud of because ive dealt with the withdrawl syndroms from getting off them. im fighting like hell to keep myself from going back to them & its hard when he keeps talking about drugs all the time. all we talk about is drugs & music. i cant deal with that. so for a while i started to think maybe its all talk & no action.. how nice would that be. well lately he's been carrying ciggs to school which u get REALLY busted for. well i was driving home today & i saw him smoking. i seriously almost cried. i know its "just a ciggarette" but thats the thing, its not JUST a cigg. i watched my mom die from 3 packs a day. he could barely wait to get off the bus before he lit up. & i know deep inside he started doing drugs to be "cool" its not cool he's gona fucking die. he doesnt do it for stress he does it to be cool & either way theres no need for it. i wana say something but ive all the smokers i know he wouldn't listen & he just bitch me out or walk or throw in some remark about the shit ive done. its like killing me inside knowing hes killing himself. of all the people i know that are living druggies he's the worst & the only one i CANT talk to. ugh i could seriously break down & cry. nothing hurts me more than druggies now cuz ive seen the effects.. its been a huge part of my life & the ones around me. i CANT CANT CANT lose anothe person in my life. i know itll take a while but either way.. its needs to stop. ugh its making me SO sad.
well i have a project due tomorrow that i found out about today cuz ive been gone 3 days in a row. so yeah. guess i should do all my homework.. tons of it!!.. im really upset i got a 29/40 on my tech theatre essay because my teacher was that perfect student so she grades up like that.. its like its not worth my time to write it cuz nothing is ever good enough & she wont listen to me! ugh, & the druggie copied me & got 33/40 WTF!!?! im frustrated. i have another essay due in there for a design project on monday.. i like dont even wana bother cuz its not good enough for her!! GRRR!!!!
kk.. of to work i guess.
i have 2 classes with this kid that grew up near rochester NY so we've been talking alot. it drives me crazy the way he talks about drugs all the time. ive told him its stupid & not something to be proud of because ive dealt with the withdrawl syndroms from getting off them. im fighting like hell to keep myself from going back to them & its hard when he keeps talking about drugs all the time. all we talk about is drugs & music. i cant deal with that. so for a while i started to think maybe its all talk & no action.. how nice would that be. well lately he's been carrying ciggs to school which u get REALLY busted for. well i was driving home today & i saw him smoking. i seriously almost cried. i know its "just a ciggarette" but thats the thing, its not JUST a cigg. i watched my mom die from 3 packs a day. he could barely wait to get off the bus before he lit up. & i know deep inside he started doing drugs to be "cool" its not cool he's gona fucking die. he doesnt do it for stress he does it to be cool & either way theres no need for it. i wana say something but ive all the smokers i know he wouldn't listen & he just bitch me out or walk or throw in some remark about the shit ive done. its like killing me inside knowing hes killing himself. of all the people i know that are living druggies he's the worst & the only one i CANT talk to. ugh i could seriously break down & cry. nothing hurts me more than druggies now cuz ive seen the effects.. its been a huge part of my life & the ones around me. i CANT CANT CANT lose anothe person in my life. i know itll take a while but either way.. its needs to stop. ugh its making me SO sad.
well i have a project due tomorrow that i found out about today cuz ive been gone 3 days in a row. so yeah. guess i should do all my homework.. tons of it!!.. im really upset i got a 29/40 on my tech theatre essay because my teacher was that perfect student so she grades up like that.. its like its not worth my time to write it cuz nothing is ever good enough & she wont listen to me! ugh, & the druggie copied me & got 33/40 WTF!!?! im frustrated. i have another essay due in there for a design project on monday.. i like dont even wana bother cuz its not good enough for her!! GRRR!!!!
kk.. of to work i guess.