I am who i am

[newyorkcanwait]

i can take anything anybody says about me & everything is as close to perfect as it can be right now.

but i REALLY dont like who i am.

its kinda hard to say this cuz its never really mattered but...
i HATE that im so unhealthy/over-weight
i WONT eat anymore just cuz i feel like such a loser when i do
i feel so out of place.
everybody is so skinny & im just unhealthy

i feel like my dad hates me for who i am & i know its just him trying to care but i dont want him to think im fat.

its just really weird having ur dad tell u to get EVERY food fat free & telling u ordering ur salad dressing at restaurants.

so instead of feeling sorry for myself... its gota change.
thats all i've got to say.

:)