here I go, playing the star again

[newyorkburrito]

So, my life has been really kinda irritating lately. Not all aspects of it, just a few. Like my brother for instance. The only brother & sibling that I have. He's also one of the coolest most laid back people I know. But his life is in total shambles right now. Has been currently unemployed for nearly 3 months, my parents still paying for his car and cell phone, and dating one of my old best friends (I say old because I've come to realize recently how crazy this bitch is) and I think all of his friends have realized the same thing. But of course, he hasn't. We still talk and hang out here and there, but he's a very different person when he's with her. I don't know what my point is exactly....I'm just ranting. He's never been fired from a job until he started living with her, he's never been unemployed for such a long amount of time until he started living with her, he's never treated me and his nephew this way until he started living with her. And I can't totally blame her, he is 23, and his own person who can clearly make his own decisions. It's just frustrating, thats all.

Anyway....I've cut back on smoking, a lot. Maybe like one a day. I don't even know why, I'm not trying to quit. I just haven't been craving them as much. I'm working out twice a day these days....that might have something to do with it. Some sort of health kick, I guess.

Other than my previous rant, life isn't bad. The husbands good, baby's good....I'm starting school again. Really not excited about it. But hey....people change, life constantly changes, and if I ever want to get the fuck out of california, I need something to get me there.