so here we are...
umm I think I have a kidney infection. Along with the rest of my problems, it's starting to get in the way of my plans. I don't know if anyone else has had a kidney infection recently, but I'm not quite sure what the symptoms are and how serious it may be. But my kidney area is really sore and has been for almost two weeks now. I thought I might've just tweeked the muscle, but it's still there. Anyway, I'm going to make an appt for the doctors tomorrow. Egh, I hate doctors and hospitals and scary things of that sort. I just want to be healthy and happy.
Anyway, I went to San Fran this weekend for my cousin's wedding. It was incredible. She looked gorgeous. It was so nice, it almost made me want to get married right then. Almost. But she looks more happy than I have ever seen her, so that was nice. Plus I got to see some family I don't see all the time, it was awkward, but ok. I find myself closer to my friends than family, by a lot. I pretty much just create this family of friends and lean on them whenever I need them. I never really thought about calling up my aunt or grandma to get advice, but this weekend kind of showed me that my "real" family is there too, and that they love me.
I leave for Montana in six weeks. Wow. Six weeks. It's going to be here sooner than that, I can feel it. I have 4 more paychecks before I go, which equals me getting my act together and working my ass off. But that brings me back to my health issues, I really need to figure this shit out before I move to an unfamilar land without insurance and parents. I have tomorrow off though, so I might even just go up to the doctor's without an appointment and sit there and wait for however long I have to wait before someone will see me. Yes, it's that serious.
So what else is new....? Nothing I guess. Ugh this whole kidney thing is freaking me out. My right one hurts the worst but I swear the more I think about it, the more the left one starts to hurt. Fuck my life. I can't be having these problems anymore. And I swear I know what its from. Me and my diseases always meeting at a crossroad every now and then. I swear I'll never be fully healthy. Is that even possible? I dont know.
Anyway, I went to San Fran this weekend for my cousin's wedding. It was incredible. She looked gorgeous. It was so nice, it almost made me want to get married right then. Almost. But she looks more happy than I have ever seen her, so that was nice. Plus I got to see some family I don't see all the time, it was awkward, but ok. I find myself closer to my friends than family, by a lot. I pretty much just create this family of friends and lean on them whenever I need them. I never really thought about calling up my aunt or grandma to get advice, but this weekend kind of showed me that my "real" family is there too, and that they love me.
I leave for Montana in six weeks. Wow. Six weeks. It's going to be here sooner than that, I can feel it. I have 4 more paychecks before I go, which equals me getting my act together and working my ass off. But that brings me back to my health issues, I really need to figure this shit out before I move to an unfamilar land without insurance and parents. I have tomorrow off though, so I might even just go up to the doctor's without an appointment and sit there and wait for however long I have to wait before someone will see me. Yes, it's that serious.
So what else is new....? Nothing I guess. Ugh this whole kidney thing is freaking me out. My right one hurts the worst but I swear the more I think about it, the more the left one starts to hurt. Fuck my life. I can't be having these problems anymore. And I swear I know what its from. Me and my diseases always meeting at a crossroad every now and then. I swear I'll never be fully healthy. Is that even possible? I dont know.