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Still at my grandparents. Was gonna come back, but I just don't feel right at the moment. Like I'm not supposed to be there. Its weird, I don't know how to explain it. Not that it feels like I'm supposed to be here either, I just don't know. I feel really lonely at the moment. Just in general, not in a lacking a significant other sort of way. Probably come back on Thursday, but don't know. We'll see how it goes. Might hang out with Maureen on Thursday, unless Kate hangs out with her before that. Have a job interview on Thursday at 10:30 at night. Should be interesting. Hmmm. Yea. I want change. Desperately. Maybe. I just want to be, if that make any sense. I was listening to cds and I really liked these.
i feel stupid - but i know it won't last for long
i've been guessing - i coulda been guessin' wrong
you don't know me now
i kinda thought that you should somehow
does that whole mad season got ya down
i feel stupid but it's something that comes and goes
i've been changin' - think it's funny how no one knows
we don't talk about - the little things that we do without
when that whole mad season comes around
so why ya gotta stand there
looking like the answer now
it seems to me - you'd come around
i need you now
do you think you can cope
you figured me out - i'm lost and i'm hopeless
bleeding and broken - though i've never spoken
i come undone - in this mad season
i feel stupid - but i think i been catchin' on
i feel ugly - but i know i still turn you on
you seem colder now, torn apart, angry, turned around
will that whole mad season knock you down
so are you gonna stand there
are you gonna help me out
you need to be together now - i need you now
now i'm cryin' - isn't that what you want
i'm tryin' to live my life on my own
but i won't
at times - i do believe i am strong
so someone tell me why, why, why
do i feel stupid
and i came undone
i wanna live, i wanna leave, i wanna open up and breath
i wanna go, i wanna be, i wanna fell it constantly
gotta show, gotta say, gotta feeling that won't go away
i've gotta know if they got away, my opportunities....
just one chance is all i ever wanted
just one time i'd like to win the game
from now on i'll take the chance if i can have it
just one just one
i need to think, i need to feed, i need to see if i still bleed
i need a place, i need a time, i need to step outside that line
gonna give, gonna take, gonna scream til i'm awake
i'm gonna push, i'm gonna pull, open up the door
i feel stupid - but i know it won't last for long
i've been guessing - i coulda been guessin' wrong
you don't know me now
i kinda thought that you should somehow
does that whole mad season got ya down
i feel stupid but it's something that comes and goes
i've been changin' - think it's funny how no one knows
we don't talk about - the little things that we do without
when that whole mad season comes around
so why ya gotta stand there
looking like the answer now
it seems to me - you'd come around
i need you now
do you think you can cope
you figured me out - i'm lost and i'm hopeless
bleeding and broken - though i've never spoken
i come undone - in this mad season
i feel stupid - but i think i been catchin' on
i feel ugly - but i know i still turn you on
you seem colder now, torn apart, angry, turned around
will that whole mad season knock you down
so are you gonna stand there
are you gonna help me out
you need to be together now - i need you now
now i'm cryin' - isn't that what you want
i'm tryin' to live my life on my own
but i won't
at times - i do believe i am strong
so someone tell me why, why, why
do i feel stupid
and i came undone
i wanna live, i wanna leave, i wanna open up and breath
i wanna go, i wanna be, i wanna fell it constantly
gotta show, gotta say, gotta feeling that won't go away
i've gotta know if they got away, my opportunities....
just one chance is all i ever wanted
just one time i'd like to win the game
from now on i'll take the chance if i can have it
just one just one
i need to think, i need to feed, i need to see if i still bleed
i need a place, i need a time, i need to step outside that line
gonna give, gonna take, gonna scream til i'm awake
i'm gonna push, i'm gonna pull, open up the door