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So its been a while... as per usual. Things are allright. I'm on vacation now so things are temporarilly settling down. For now. Work has been hell. I'm not gonna lie. It's the first time that I've really not liked being there. But I think that things will start to even out soon and that should be ok.
I found out last week that my Grammy has alzheimers. And I'm quite devestated. She has always been a vital driving force in that very strong close knit family and I can't ever imagine things without her. It's also strange to see my mother break down a little. She very rarely does. She's handling it alright. But I know that this is gonna be a long painful journey. I'm trying to be ready for it but I've been fortunate to never have to deal with things like this. Uncharted waters for me. A lot to think about I guess.
relationships:??? Thats all I'll say cause it's all I know. Going with the flow and hoping something nice comes out of it. That'd be swell. I'm well over due for someone lovely to love me!
My therapist wants to start discussing me not going anymore right now...she thinks I'm doing well. This scares me. My safety net is gone. But I guess I should be excited! So YAY!
The show makes me wanna gouge my eyes out. The end. I have a lovely little issue called AN. Enough said. At least I'm getting paid for this circus sideshow act....and I better GET PAID!
Today things are good...not great but good. And thats better then they have been, so something to smile about.
I found out last week that my Grammy has alzheimers. And I'm quite devestated. She has always been a vital driving force in that very strong close knit family and I can't ever imagine things without her. It's also strange to see my mother break down a little. She very rarely does. She's handling it alright. But I know that this is gonna be a long painful journey. I'm trying to be ready for it but I've been fortunate to never have to deal with things like this. Uncharted waters for me. A lot to think about I guess.
relationships:??? Thats all I'll say cause it's all I know. Going with the flow and hoping something nice comes out of it. That'd be swell. I'm well over due for someone lovely to love me!
My therapist wants to start discussing me not going anymore right now...she thinks I'm doing well. This scares me. My safety net is gone. But I guess I should be excited! So YAY!
The show makes me wanna gouge my eyes out. The end. I have a lovely little issue called AN. Enough said. At least I'm getting paid for this circus sideshow act....and I better GET PAID!
Today things are good...not great but good. And thats better then they have been, so something to smile about.