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i love this.
it makes me want to cry and smile and jump on paul.
There's This Girl... [09 Dec 2005|02:05am]
[ music | Nina Simone - Don't Smoke In Bed ]
I dont even know her...AT ALL...well a little...and I can't stop thinking about her...not in a creepy "I LOVE HER SHE WILL BE MINE WAY" but in a way that hurts just a little and in a way that I want to know her, I want her to be able to call me, and to hang out with me when im nearby, to be something more than, well nothing?
This probably doesn't make sense, and to be honest I feel very stupid writing this, this is hard because to be honest I dont even know what I should be feeling.
If youve ever seen Lost In Translation, it's that kind of feeling that you can't explain, but you know it's there. You know, what Bill Murray feels for the girl, and what she feels too, even though they are both married...they have this connection...im not saying its right..but its there and....fuck....I dont know if this girl is 'married' or single or not...maybe I still kind of am...I don't know anymore...fuck...this is horrible...she is amazing, and pretty and cute and funny...and pretty much everything I could ever hope to want...and fuck...its the same as before...distance...fuck.
Timing Sucks.
Timing Sucks.
Timing Sucks.
Go to sleep Paul.
it makes me want to cry and smile and jump on paul.
There's This Girl... [09 Dec 2005|02:05am]
[ music | Nina Simone - Don't Smoke In Bed ]
I dont even know her...AT ALL...well a little...and I can't stop thinking about her...not in a creepy "I LOVE HER SHE WILL BE MINE WAY" but in a way that hurts just a little and in a way that I want to know her, I want her to be able to call me, and to hang out with me when im nearby, to be something more than, well nothing?
This probably doesn't make sense, and to be honest I feel very stupid writing this, this is hard because to be honest I dont even know what I should be feeling.
If youve ever seen Lost In Translation, it's that kind of feeling that you can't explain, but you know it's there. You know, what Bill Murray feels for the girl, and what she feels too, even though they are both married...they have this connection...im not saying its right..but its there and....fuck....I dont know if this girl is 'married' or single or not...maybe I still kind of am...I don't know anymore...fuck...this is horrible...she is amazing, and pretty and cute and funny...and pretty much everything I could ever hope to want...and fuck...its the same as before...distance...fuck.
Timing Sucks.
Timing Sucks.
Timing Sucks.
Go to sleep Paul.