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... And it seems that I'm having trouble updating regularly as well.
Aikido class is over. I ended up only going to one more class and just doing the warm-ups. I didn't feel comfortable. I don't think that I am suited to take a class like that. Maybe if it was straight-up exercizing, but I get so intimidated by trying to learn all of the moves that I stop caring.
I didn't pig out on Christmas, so that's a plus. I ate some junk food, but it's not like I ate until I was about to burst. This was the first Christmas I spent away from my parents' house, and David's family rarely snacks. I suppose that's a good thing, but I get a bit self-conscious when I get hungry and want to find a snack.
Last night, I baked some fish, and I was planning on steaming up some cabbage. My mom-in-law insisted I make curly fries, so I ended up doing that and giving myself half the fries and half the baked cod I gave everyone else. It was like three mouthfuls of food, and I was still hungry. *sigh* I feel so intimidated saying that I wanted to make an extra course of cabbage because I knew I was still going to be hungry. And I knew it wasn't going to be enough food for four people.
I need to start exercizing again. I got a new pair of workout pants from my in-laws, and I still need to see if they fit.
Also need to start eating vegetables. That means I gotta buy them myself and make an effort to prepare them, I suppose.
I've been so stressed out about trying to find work that I haven't really been focusing on weight loss. My mom will call from Michigan and chew me out because I haven't found a FULL TIME JOB WITH BENEFITS. I've been applying to at least 3-4 jobs every day and I spend hours looking for work. I don't understand why she can't back off. It's not like I'm not trying. *sigh* I still need to focus on weight-loss if I want something to happen. I have learned a lot of good habits since 09, and that's why I haven't put on any weight, but I would like to lose instead of maintain.
Aikido class is over. I ended up only going to one more class and just doing the warm-ups. I didn't feel comfortable. I don't think that I am suited to take a class like that. Maybe if it was straight-up exercizing, but I get so intimidated by trying to learn all of the moves that I stop caring.
I didn't pig out on Christmas, so that's a plus. I ate some junk food, but it's not like I ate until I was about to burst. This was the first Christmas I spent away from my parents' house, and David's family rarely snacks. I suppose that's a good thing, but I get a bit self-conscious when I get hungry and want to find a snack.
Last night, I baked some fish, and I was planning on steaming up some cabbage. My mom-in-law insisted I make curly fries, so I ended up doing that and giving myself half the fries and half the baked cod I gave everyone else. It was like three mouthfuls of food, and I was still hungry. *sigh* I feel so intimidated saying that I wanted to make an extra course of cabbage because I knew I was still going to be hungry. And I knew it wasn't going to be enough food for four people.
I need to start exercizing again. I got a new pair of workout pants from my in-laws, and I still need to see if they fit.
Also need to start eating vegetables. That means I gotta buy them myself and make an effort to prepare them, I suppose.
I've been so stressed out about trying to find work that I haven't really been focusing on weight loss. My mom will call from Michigan and chew me out because I haven't found a FULL TIME JOB WITH BENEFITS. I've been applying to at least 3-4 jobs every day and I spend hours looking for work. I don't understand why she can't back off. It's not like I'm not trying. *sigh* I still need to focus on weight-loss if I want something to happen. I have learned a lot of good habits since 09, and that's why I haven't put on any weight, but I would like to lose instead of maintain.