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Even though I constantly over analyze and am hypercritical I am very happy with who I am and what I have. Even when everything is perfectly in order I can somehow manage to fill my head with melodrama. Alot of the time I have to stop my mind from racing and remind myself I'm happy. I am working on fixing this because I want to be more relaxed and less high strung. Will things work out? I am trying to believe myself when I say they will. Even though you never really know if things with work out in the end its better to be optimistic about them. Where does pessimism get you? I want more happiness. I thought about life without you tonight and scared myself. Pretty pathetic but in a good way. I am happy.