Well Shit
Wow I have been busy the last couple of weeks, I have started 2 regular firedancing gigs on Wednesdays I perform at Embers and on Thursdays I have been performing at viper room. And I was just contacted about a gig that is on tuesday nights at Pala's. most of the places around town to firedance at are more geared towards hoochie mamma girls playing with fire so its hard as a male to get gigs, but hey looks like I am doing alright.
School and firedancing and every big plan that I have has been placed on hold at the moment. I have been trying to go to Wolf Creek, to live there for at least a month, hopefully december. I contacted the people that I needed to and they seem to be very welcoming, however I do need to find my own dry warm shelter for sleeping space. I dont have the confidence or self esteem that I need to really blossom anywhere, wheather that be firedancingm building bikes, having a job, etc.... going through alot of shit right now and I think that going out there with a couple good books and a journal would be VERY beneficial to me. Still waiting on the word to see if anyone can help with the shelter. (Just made aposting on tribe)
I finally chatted with Mykal online, took him awhile to respind I had to be persistant, however I fonally talked to him and it seems like he is believing his own lies, there were some things in his story that diddnt match, even kind of, I pointed them out to him and he just got pissed and went off on something else. I dont know, if he really thinks that things happened differently and I am a friend I would be persisting for the connection and to clear things up. However I think that it is pretty clear now that he is out and out lieing about everything and has come to believe it himself.
August has been very odd in my life, again coming over and smoking eveything that i have, mostly seems like his motivation to come and see me anymore. He sends me txt messages and things but never answers his phone and there is a long delay on txt messages. He used to answer almost everytime I called. I dont know. He did call and invite me to do to the hot springs, I would have gone but the boy who used me and still uses me to get to him was going, August uses him like a sex toy and Danny uses me and tells me to get over it. I dont think that would have been a fun trip for me. but ever since then August has been very distant, and I dont know what to think.
School and firedancing and every big plan that I have has been placed on hold at the moment. I have been trying to go to Wolf Creek, to live there for at least a month, hopefully december. I contacted the people that I needed to and they seem to be very welcoming, however I do need to find my own dry warm shelter for sleeping space. I dont have the confidence or self esteem that I need to really blossom anywhere, wheather that be firedancingm building bikes, having a job, etc.... going through alot of shit right now and I think that going out there with a couple good books and a journal would be VERY beneficial to me. Still waiting on the word to see if anyone can help with the shelter. (Just made aposting on tribe)
I finally chatted with Mykal online, took him awhile to respind I had to be persistant, however I fonally talked to him and it seems like he is believing his own lies, there were some things in his story that diddnt match, even kind of, I pointed them out to him and he just got pissed and went off on something else. I dont know, if he really thinks that things happened differently and I am a friend I would be persisting for the connection and to clear things up. However I think that it is pretty clear now that he is out and out lieing about everything and has come to believe it himself.
August has been very odd in my life, again coming over and smoking eveything that i have, mostly seems like his motivation to come and see me anymore. He sends me txt messages and things but never answers his phone and there is a long delay on txt messages. He used to answer almost everytime I called. I dont know. He did call and invite me to do to the hot springs, I would have gone but the boy who used me and still uses me to get to him was going, August uses him like a sex toy and Danny uses me and tells me to get over it. I dont think that would have been a fun trip for me. but ever since then August has been very distant, and I dont know what to think.