NEWTs stress
The next person who tells me to chill out is going to grow antlers. And I don't mean out of their head.
Private:
NEWT stress is the official excuse. In reality, I'm hardly even able to concentrate on my work at the moment. I've been a nervous wreck since that scare with Zacharias Smith. I'm assuming it was a false alarm, else Umbridge would have had us up in her office by now, I'm sure. I don't know why Hermione was so sure he hadn't, but I didn't believe her, I was on edge just waiting until it became apparent something would have happened if it was going to happen. And now I'm still on edge. It feels like it's only a matter of time. How long is everyone going to keep their mouths shut? Even if everyone does, she's bound to find out somehow. She'll catch someone on their way there, or end up confiscating one of those fake galleons and it'll glow hot and she'll interrogate whoever with veritaserum. Oh sweet Rowena, veritaserum. There is no hope. Really. We're all going to get busted and I'll get in so much trouble. It'll ruin all my career chances, not to mention my mum's. For some reason she seems really stressed about being a muggle-born and keeping on the right side of Umbridge. I don't know why, Umbridge doesn't seem particularly bloodist, whatever else her faults. I mean, the Weasleys are pure-blood and she hates them, right? I guess mum knows her better than I do, though. I don't want her to suffer at work because of something I've done. What if I make her lose her job? How will we live?
I can't even talk to Cho. She seems more concerned with her lovelife than getting into trouble at the moment. And even when I do talk to her, I can't quite suppress feeling kind of hostile towards her. She got me into this mess, and all for that stupid Potter boy. I think she's holding some stuff back from me, and I can't even bring myself to try to find out what it is, because that would involve being sympathetic. I'm not feeling up to sympathetic right now, I'm worried enough about my own problems
I don't know if I'm strong enough for this. I wish it was last year again.
Private:
NEWT stress is the official excuse. In reality, I'm hardly even able to concentrate on my work at the moment. I've been a nervous wreck since that scare with Zacharias Smith. I'm assuming it was a false alarm, else Umbridge would have had us up in her office by now, I'm sure. I don't know why Hermione was so sure he hadn't, but I didn't believe her, I was on edge just waiting until it became apparent something would have happened if it was going to happen. And now I'm still on edge. It feels like it's only a matter of time. How long is everyone going to keep their mouths shut? Even if everyone does, she's bound to find out somehow. She'll catch someone on their way there, or end up confiscating one of those fake galleons and it'll glow hot and she'll interrogate whoever with veritaserum. Oh sweet Rowena, veritaserum. There is no hope. Really. We're all going to get busted and I'll get in so much trouble. It'll ruin all my career chances, not to mention my mum's. For some reason she seems really stressed about being a muggle-born and keeping on the right side of Umbridge. I don't know why, Umbridge doesn't seem particularly bloodist, whatever else her faults. I mean, the Weasleys are pure-blood and she hates them, right? I guess mum knows her better than I do, though. I don't want her to suffer at work because of something I've done. What if I make her lose her job? How will we live?
I can't even talk to Cho. She seems more concerned with her lovelife than getting into trouble at the moment. And even when I do talk to her, I can't quite suppress feeling kind of hostile towards her. She got me into this mess, and all for that stupid Potter boy. I think she's holding some stuff back from me, and I can't even bring myself to try to find out what it is, because that would involve being sympathetic. I'm not feeling up to sympathetic right now, I'm worried enough about my own problems
I don't know if I'm strong enough for this. I wish it was last year again.