tired
so i did that quiz shit to find out what cuss word i am, and thats what i turned out to be... how fuckin great is that.
on a nasty note, im in a really shitty ass mood (as usual), im just come to the realization that im fucking tired of a lof of things that happen around me, im tired of drama, im tired of fucking lies, and BULLSHIT, im tired of fake situations that are created and made into a huge ordeal, im tired of two faced fuckin bitches, im just realy fuckin tired. like i say time and time again, i dont need it, if u want to have drama, have it, just keep me the hell away from it and dont fucking involve me.
ive always been the type of person that if u pissed me off even once or twice i could write your ass off for life, just switch u off like a light switch, and thats what im doing to a lof of fucking people, and u know what? it doesnt bother me one bit. i guess thats why its easy being me, ashley always says i treat people like a light switch, piss me off, and FLICK ur fucking gone and i dont give a rats ass what the hell happens to you. and its sad to say that the idea of some people are better off then the actual person themselves. thats sad people.
im starting once again to feel really comfortable in my situation, feeling better about myself.. but for some reason im meeting asshole people that do nothing but drag me down and fuckin make it that much harder for me to fuckin cope and move on... damn i fucking say fuck a lot. the whole trust thing is thrown out the window.. its gone.. everyone i meet now is on a "hey i trust u for the moment" kinda thing but when they leave.. its vanished.. hey thats the only way to be.. I DONT NEED THIS FUCKING DRAMA SO KEEP IT THE HELL AWAY FROM ME.
let see.. lately ive been drinking.. and drinking.. and drinking.. and getting no sleep.. went back to my pills.. almost got fired.. started to cut ties with a lot of FUCKS..the good thing is is that i think my sex life is going to pick up again which doesnt suck for me at all.. i have a few guys at work that have been more than obvious about it "hey erica, lets just have a nice good fucking time" u know what .. intimacy blows, im down for a good bang once in a while.. FUCK IT :) i hate liars.. if ur a liar, fucking meet me one day and ill smash u over the head with a beer bottle.. have a nice day.
on a higher note.. last night was funny as shit.. saw some weiners, and boobies, and strip poker and beer.. haha, wish i had my camera then. but crap.. lol i cant even think about it without laughing, sorry u showed up later matt, tough break kid.
i really hate how i get treated sometimes, im not being nice anymore. time to drink