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now
we have not only broken up, but he is enraged.
last night, i partied.
with good friends.
porter was there, but that didn't matter.
i got drunk (not entirely wasted) and i hooked up with louie.
porter flipped a shit
"i always knew there was something there."
he screamed at me. "i knew it all along and i called you on it and you denied it and the minute youre available... straight to him."
i wish i could've just turned around and been like, "fuck you. i'm not yours anymore and i can do whatever the fuck i want."
but i couldn't bring myself to do it
i don't know why
that's a lie. i know exactly why.
i still love him.
and i pray that his reaction was because
he still loves me.
we have not only broken up, but he is enraged.
last night, i partied.
with good friends.
porter was there, but that didn't matter.
i got drunk (not entirely wasted) and i hooked up with louie.
porter flipped a shit
"i always knew there was something there."
he screamed at me. "i knew it all along and i called you on it and you denied it and the minute youre available... straight to him."
i wish i could've just turned around and been like, "fuck you. i'm not yours anymore and i can do whatever the fuck i want."
but i couldn't bring myself to do it
i don't know why
that's a lie. i know exactly why.
i still love him.
and i pray that his reaction was because
he still loves me.