Fear or intuition
I can never distinguish between the two. Right now, I'm thinking about things. Actions are good in my mind. Very, very good. Sometimes the actions are so indifferent that I begin to worry whether the words are true, or not. After all, I didn't compare to *her* before. :( I've been thinking about that again. Becky brought it up, in a joking "I don't like him" kinda punch. Meanwhile, she loved Sam and he was an asshole.
I can't make everyone happy, but what happens when I begin to think the worst? Why would he do sweet things, come over all the time, and try to make me happy if he didn't care? Maybe I just want him to gush all over me...maybe I just want him to look into my eyes and say "baby, I really love you," instead of a reactionary "i love you too."
indifference is painful sometimes.
Being in love is frightening. Especially with the new year coming and all.
I can't make everyone happy, but what happens when I begin to think the worst? Why would he do sweet things, come over all the time, and try to make me happy if he didn't care? Maybe I just want him to gush all over me...maybe I just want him to look into my eyes and say "baby, I really love you," instead of a reactionary "i love you too."
indifference is painful sometimes.
Being in love is frightening. Especially with the new year coming and all.