My few days with Cora, and before.
I just have to tell this: I was talking to my mum on Friday night, and my phone went off. She asked "Whos that texting ya?" My reply "If I knew that I wouldn't neeeeeeeeed the bloody phone would I" LMAO!!! Anyone who likes Lee Evans will get it, anyone who doesn't please realise its a Lee Evans Joke hehe. That was great!
At my work on Thursday, this absolutly gorgeous little girl came in. She was so happy! It made me so broody. hehe. I really wanted to steal her. Work was actually quite busy. Which shocked me, hehe. My first customer was drunk though! That didn't make the night look promising, but it turned out good. Even on the way out, someone who I know of, but barely know his name said hi to me. The reason I'm saying this is that people in Arbroath never say hi to anyone that isn't a friend. So I thought that was nice. He came into my work a while ago, and he seemed nice enough and talked to me a bit. Most people my age, if you aren't in their clique they can't talk to you. Oh and someone I used to hate went past my work too. He just done this stupid face he does when he went passed. I think he was shocked to see me, hehe. Grr I hate him, he thinks he's so cool and great and that he can treat anyone like shit. Well mister, you aren't what you think you are. Most people don't actually like you. And you are a bully. I loved it when I pulled my chair (which you took from me) from you when you went to sit down and everyone laughed. It might sound evil, but you deserved to have it done to you sometime, someone needed to show you that you aren't invincable. Not that it really worked. He was back to normal as soon as, as you'd expect. But it felt good doing that. I am a good person, and I don't like being mean to people, I really can't do it.. If I don't like the person, they will realise it. But seriously I find it hard to be nasty. Though if its too the right person, I have plenty of ideas! Like its Dougs birthday this week, I told my mum I should send a card and say "At least I don't have to be shouted at to send you a card" As he had to with me. Probably won't do that, but still... a good idea. Especially seeing as it came from me.
Well. Cora arrived here on Saturday. I was a bit nervous about her coming, because of before y'know. But things were ok. She didn't like any of the food we had in the house so I had to treat her to her tea. We didn't really do much the few days she was here. As well, there isn't much to do in Arbroath, ha. But we went out, just like downtown and stuff. Spent a lot of time in my room, no dirty thoughts please ;-) She was surprised at how much Dave text me, hehe. And we phoned each other a few times too, he phoned me a couple of times from work!. There was a bit of a worry she wouldn't get away because she couldn't get her credit card to work! But it did work. She is now down in Peterborough, with Fee. She will be meeting Dave sometime; but while Fee's there. We'll see how it goes. Then on Thursday night, she will be arriving back here, until Monday morning. I know so far that we will be going swimming. I dunno what else. Really nothing to do around here.
Though the weathers been ok here (she says as the rain is pouring outside, ha) I got a lil sunburnt the other day. Todays been typical Scottish weather, sunny one minute rain the next.
Oh, and I've been recognised at the shop down the road from me for always topping up my phone, hehe. And I was going in to top up my phone aswell. Actually I better check it... ok I have £3... will that last me the night... hmm... it might do. Well I've already spent £3 since I last checked, hehe. Might see about topping it up later, depending how it goes.
Oh and I will be able to write letters to Dave again! We couldn't when he was in the middle of moving. So this is the first in a few months! :D I love writing letters! Yay! Will be doing that tonight! Also phoning Dave tonight, I just want to chat really, so yeah. ^_^ Oh and he asked his dad about me going down there for a bit, he said providing the house was sorted and all that.
Oh yeah, I was looking through old diaries the other night, no when Cora was here! And I was embarrassed really, of how I was like then. Especially my one from 2 years ago! I actually put Johnny Depp pics in it! *blushes* hehe. Though I hate most of it "I think ** fancies me" Like hell he did (If you knew how I was back then, and what people thought of and treated me you would know thats bull) And I found where my obsession with my weight started. Well, when it started to get worse than just crying over it. How little I would eat. Though I wasn't really anorexic. I was still eating something. And I wasn't throwing up. But all through the diary, well it started off wishing I was just fit and healthy. But when I fell out with friends, I seemed determined to just not be 'fat'. One day I ate 355 calories. There are nearly that many in my tea I am having tonight! I wanted to be well under what I knew was my healthy weight (which I was just at the heavier side of being normal. I would keep record of all calories and exercise I done. It got worse in my second diary (from 2005) Just read some scribbles about getting extremely annoyed about Doug offering me chocolate. I know what I'm saying may not sound that bad, but y'know. I don't even know why I'm saying this. But I have to say, In the summer of 2005; I realised, there is nothing wrong with my body, and that I shouldn't really care. So what if I don't do as much exercise. I'm not saying I have a perfect figure, but I like it. I'm not stick thin, I have curves and like it like that. I would like to tone up a little, but I'm not really bothered. It seems the summer of 2005 really helped me realise a lot of things. I done some maturing that summer. I realised that.
Yep, I have gone on a bit. I apologise.
At my work on Thursday, this absolutly gorgeous little girl came in. She was so happy! It made me so broody. hehe. I really wanted to steal her. Work was actually quite busy. Which shocked me, hehe. My first customer was drunk though! That didn't make the night look promising, but it turned out good. Even on the way out, someone who I know of, but barely know his name said hi to me. The reason I'm saying this is that people in Arbroath never say hi to anyone that isn't a friend. So I thought that was nice. He came into my work a while ago, and he seemed nice enough and talked to me a bit. Most people my age, if you aren't in their clique they can't talk to you. Oh and someone I used to hate went past my work too. He just done this stupid face he does when he went passed. I think he was shocked to see me, hehe. Grr I hate him, he thinks he's so cool and great and that he can treat anyone like shit. Well mister, you aren't what you think you are. Most people don't actually like you. And you are a bully. I loved it when I pulled my chair (which you took from me) from you when you went to sit down and everyone laughed. It might sound evil, but you deserved to have it done to you sometime, someone needed to show you that you aren't invincable. Not that it really worked. He was back to normal as soon as, as you'd expect. But it felt good doing that. I am a good person, and I don't like being mean to people, I really can't do it.. If I don't like the person, they will realise it. But seriously I find it hard to be nasty. Though if its too the right person, I have plenty of ideas! Like its Dougs birthday this week, I told my mum I should send a card and say "At least I don't have to be shouted at to send you a card" As he had to with me. Probably won't do that, but still... a good idea. Especially seeing as it came from me.
Well. Cora arrived here on Saturday. I was a bit nervous about her coming, because of before y'know. But things were ok. She didn't like any of the food we had in the house so I had to treat her to her tea. We didn't really do much the few days she was here. As well, there isn't much to do in Arbroath, ha. But we went out, just like downtown and stuff. Spent a lot of time in my room, no dirty thoughts please ;-) She was surprised at how much Dave text me, hehe. And we phoned each other a few times too, he phoned me a couple of times from work!. There was a bit of a worry she wouldn't get away because she couldn't get her credit card to work! But it did work. She is now down in Peterborough, with Fee. She will be meeting Dave sometime; but while Fee's there. We'll see how it goes. Then on Thursday night, she will be arriving back here, until Monday morning. I know so far that we will be going swimming. I dunno what else. Really nothing to do around here.
Though the weathers been ok here (she says as the rain is pouring outside, ha) I got a lil sunburnt the other day. Todays been typical Scottish weather, sunny one minute rain the next.
Oh, and I've been recognised at the shop down the road from me for always topping up my phone, hehe. And I was going in to top up my phone aswell. Actually I better check it... ok I have £3... will that last me the night... hmm... it might do. Well I've already spent £3 since I last checked, hehe. Might see about topping it up later, depending how it goes.
Oh and I will be able to write letters to Dave again! We couldn't when he was in the middle of moving. So this is the first in a few months! :D I love writing letters! Yay! Will be doing that tonight! Also phoning Dave tonight, I just want to chat really, so yeah. ^_^ Oh and he asked his dad about me going down there for a bit, he said providing the house was sorted and all that.
Oh yeah, I was looking through old diaries the other night, no when Cora was here! And I was embarrassed really, of how I was like then. Especially my one from 2 years ago! I actually put Johnny Depp pics in it! *blushes* hehe. Though I hate most of it "I think ** fancies me" Like hell he did (If you knew how I was back then, and what people thought of and treated me you would know thats bull) And I found where my obsession with my weight started. Well, when it started to get worse than just crying over it. How little I would eat. Though I wasn't really anorexic. I was still eating something. And I wasn't throwing up. But all through the diary, well it started off wishing I was just fit and healthy. But when I fell out with friends, I seemed determined to just not be 'fat'. One day I ate 355 calories. There are nearly that many in my tea I am having tonight! I wanted to be well under what I knew was my healthy weight (which I was just at the heavier side of being normal. I would keep record of all calories and exercise I done. It got worse in my second diary (from 2005) Just read some scribbles about getting extremely annoyed about Doug offering me chocolate. I know what I'm saying may not sound that bad, but y'know. I don't even know why I'm saying this. But I have to say, In the summer of 2005; I realised, there is nothing wrong with my body, and that I shouldn't really care. So what if I don't do as much exercise. I'm not saying I have a perfect figure, but I like it. I'm not stick thin, I have curves and like it like that. I would like to tone up a little, but I'm not really bothered. It seems the summer of 2005 really helped me realise a lot of things. I done some maturing that summer. I realised that.
Yep, I have gone on a bit. I apologise.