another night slips away in other words I should say there are no words

[newresolution]

Sometimes I have these memories that hit me like a ton of bricks. I'll just be doing something and then all of the sudden I'll have this lapse like something I did, even something I did a long time ago, is happening all over again. I can get so caught up in a memory. I've had this strange feeling in my stomach lately. I feel like I can't eat anything; like when you're really anxious about something and you feel too hung up on a feeling to eat or sleep. Luckily, though, I have been sleeping this week. I'm going home tomarow and I am really excited to see everyone and just be home for a few days. Weekend after next is austin city limits which is going to be great. These weeks aren't going to kill me and I am going to do everything I need to do and be just fine. I'm done choking on words and feeling so helpless and pathetic. Today is a good day and lets hope that it doesn't change.

the demise of the beautiful
what is beautiful?