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i'm pierced. nothing to be wow about. both ears. navel. tounge. RIP left eyebrow /: i'm tatted. just one. stone flower on right shoulder blade [thanx to my girl alexis and the amazing artist john!] don't really know how to describe myself because it's diffcult. takes me forever to put things into words so they don't come out the wrong way. don't wanna be misunderstood /: i'll start off with i'm me. nothing more, nothing less. sorry i can't be who and/or what you want me to. i love to hear truth as much as i love to speak it. i'm openminded, layed back and i don't label. who am i to judge? i'm drug free. former addict. no no no ... i'm not about to start preaching so keep reading if you will. all i'll say is you only live once, so have all the fun you can 'cuz life is beautiful and a terrible thing to waste. hugs NOT drugs [right dewey!] and there's NO hope IN dope [right dust!] i can be shy, but i can be outgoing. depends on my mood and the people i'm around. i'm happy. i'm in love. but, alone. how can one be happy when in love, yet alone? yes i'm over it. no i'm not over her. all i'll say is you can never stop loving someone, you just learn to live without them [right thomas!] i'm not in getHIGH school .:winks:. jk i swear! about the getHigh part sillies ;p dropped out after repeating the 9th grade three times. no, i'm not stupid. i just can't stand being stuck in a building full of drama, with teachers who don't give a shit that some do care to learn, and he said she said bullshit for 7-8 hours. also, i like being treated like an adult. i needed and wanted a challenge. so i dropped out! yay! great solutine i know ;) i quit at a bad time though because i started having personal problems and became an addict and quit the the job i was working @ a hair salon bringing home good $. after almost of year of going through hell and back ... i've realized everything about myself. not everyone else, but myself. i'm now in the process of getting my GED and then going to college [alexis you're going with me dammit] yes i still am jobless, but, i am being offered a good paying job which hopefully i'll start working there soon [again lex, you're going with me, lol] basically i'm getting my life on track [and help lex get hers on track too]. gotta go through hell to get to heaven [right dustin!] damn i've been rambling a lot. pretty much have given my life story. not really just the past year almost. i'm just happy, and i hadn't been for the past 3 years almost. i'd be even happier if love would come back to me )*; .:sniffs:. lol - lex if you ever read this i just thought of us being in your car. you'll know what i'm talking about, should anyways with .:sniffs:. just made me think of your nostrils :D sucha trip, but hey, a good one a good one golly darn. but hell yeh it's gonna take 2 weeks to get my GED. i go every tuesday & thursday for 2 weeks and take 4 classes so yay! i'll be wurkin' too and saving money to first, help lex pay our wonderful ticket, and then, save more money and get an apartment or hell, even a house if it can be done 'cuz bi george i'm determined |o:<0 that's my 'lil haylow - sp? yeh prolly, but i actually wanted to spell it fucked up so yeh. anyways, i know i sound drugged up so i'm all hyper, happy and talking like one fucked up individual that's actually getting their life straight, and it's almost 6am so you're all prolly like ... okay ms krackhead, then why are you still up @ the KRACK of dawm??? lol its just bc ive got my sleepin schudle all fucked up. i stay up all night and sleep most the day away. when i was a krackhead and stayed up all night and all day. not anymore! so hell yeh. didnt do much today. dewey and his new guy he's talking to matt came over. it was awesome. matt seems like a really kool guy. he reminds me of me :) the good old me before i became a krackhead. the old me that i'm becoming again :) not the krackhead ... just to get that straight hehe anyways since then ive been sittin on my ass chillin. talked to eric! he's drug free too now! yay! he even quit smokin smokes too so i was like hell yuh thats my playa playa. we're gettin the same kinda cell and its so pimp. then i talked to bryan and we hada interesting convo ... it was just i dunno deep i guess. hes an awesome guy. feels/thinks the same way i do about a lot of stuff so its nice to know you're not alone. hm what else? oh yeh i'm laying in the tanning bed again so i can get dark cuz ive been pale and sick looking for the longest time. so yay! not stressing is nice. 'cept i am w/ lex b/c i havent heard from her since she dropped me off after tonja's court hearing /: her phone's been off so i dunno what to think. i just hope shes okay and i hope i'll hear from her soon so i can find out if she wants to get that job w/ me and when i get my GED if she wants for us both to get in the same college and if we start working now we outta have enough money [if we save it which i know i'll be saving all money 'cept for that damn ticket] but i think my rents will even help us get one. we just have 2b working and at least have money to pay the bills. my mom helped pay w/ my sis and matt cuz they both were workin and goin 2 school so i kno she would w/ us. so hell yuh im ready to do this instead of just talking about it! okay im goin to bed cuz im tired. night kids!