i been upall nightlong countindays thatall wentwrong openedmy bedroomwindow wish this pain was gone
well i havnt said jackshit in this thing in forever, and thats because i just didnt give a shit about expressing my feelings to fucking anyone so ya....
but lets see where to start cuz its been so long....
ummmmm last post october 24th holy fucking shit ok hmmmm
school was gay for awhile then i got out....
ummmm i was broke as hell for awhile, but now i got a seasonal job at hechts and im most likely starting a part-time ramp agent for bwi soon..so ya
ummm went to a cocnert with a friend and took alot of anger out becuz i got in a fight with my mothers boyfriend, and almsot hit him in the face with a picture of me lol but my mom jumped into the way... um was in the pit and had some lame as skid hititn me in my ribs so he got knocked the fuck down by one o my friends a few times.. umm really really took anger out in the pit, then some lame ass kid ran right into me and busted my lip open.. yippie ya that hsit still hurts n its been a week....
ummmmmmm i started dating cara yet again, and my family didnt want me to cuz all she was going to do in the end was hurt me again.. but i did it anyway becuz i belived her.. but i should of known beter cuz shes lied like 100 times to me befor.. um we dated for amonth n some odd days then i broke up with her cuz i got sick of her fighting with me over stupid shit... but i was mad and i shouldnt have broken up with her and relized that the next day and told her but she didnt care...... so we have been broken up for 2 weeks now and i was trying to fix are problems but she wasnt... well she crashed her car friday night ( after lieing ansd saying she was going out with friends n was really going on a date) well i didnt know about the lie till a few days later but anyway i get a phone call at 130 in the morning so i go to see her... im at the hospital for like 6 hours n i get home at 7 am... i gotta be at work at 10, and work a 9 hour shift.. so ya... but then here comes the fucked up part..come to find out shes the typical 2 face fucking girl....she was talking to some nerdy ass kid at her work, and when i say nerdy lol i mean nerdy this kid looks like a jackoff.. (her mom was right =p) so that was a crash and burn situation becuz she told ( yay just got in a fight with my mom and cut my fingure open YIPPIE) me she wasnt going to hurt me again... let me refraze that told everyone she wasnt going to hurt me again..... well i should of guessed it cuz i could sense it from the begining that she was being wierd around me... but w.e.... well she hurt me again and there is another lie to add onto the list... whys it always seem to be in the end of are relationships ive always been the bad guy...? o yay and to top it off I GOT A FUCKING FLAT TIRE ON THE WAY HOME FROM ASSHOLES HOUSE TODAY!!! can anything else fuckign go wrong god damn!!!!!! o ya u guys wana hear something funny.... the reason i even made this god damn journal in the first place was to comment on caras when we first started talking like a year ago... wow...
funny thing is im wondering how many fucking people new her little secret and didnt tell me... o well, its the reason why i only have 1 best friend....
all i can think of is how many times she has lied to me, wondering what i believed if it was really true or not.... wondering if anything she ever said was even true.... ilove you... i wonder...
so now im never talking to her again, and i mean ever.... and it sucks becuz she was cool a ttimes... but hey i did nothing wrong... it sucks.. ther eis going to be alot of regret but hey nothing i can do... i have regret about shit myself....reminds me of a few months ago, i was friends with someone who i could say i would be friends with for many many years... and we got in a fight over something, and him and i are both stubborn and he doesnt want to talk to me ever again, and it really does suck... becuz like i said, i could picture myself his friend for many years....
well anyway im stuck in a burn state, i crashed like a mother fucker but ya....
ok um im doen m mother is fighting with em and i wana blow my brains out so ill give a big fuck you to everyone and you guys can read more next time i feel like takina clip cockin it back and havin ahole needing a waste of stiches...k?
but lets see where to start cuz its been so long....
ummmmm last post october 24th holy fucking shit ok hmmmm
school was gay for awhile then i got out....
ummmm i was broke as hell for awhile, but now i got a seasonal job at hechts and im most likely starting a part-time ramp agent for bwi soon..so ya
ummm went to a cocnert with a friend and took alot of anger out becuz i got in a fight with my mothers boyfriend, and almsot hit him in the face with a picture of me lol but my mom jumped into the way... um was in the pit and had some lame as skid hititn me in my ribs so he got knocked the fuck down by one o my friends a few times.. umm really really took anger out in the pit, then some lame ass kid ran right into me and busted my lip open.. yippie ya that hsit still hurts n its been a week....
ummmmmmm i started dating cara yet again, and my family didnt want me to cuz all she was going to do in the end was hurt me again.. but i did it anyway becuz i belived her.. but i should of known beter cuz shes lied like 100 times to me befor.. um we dated for amonth n some odd days then i broke up with her cuz i got sick of her fighting with me over stupid shit... but i was mad and i shouldnt have broken up with her and relized that the next day and told her but she didnt care...... so we have been broken up for 2 weeks now and i was trying to fix are problems but she wasnt... well she crashed her car friday night ( after lieing ansd saying she was going out with friends n was really going on a date) well i didnt know about the lie till a few days later but anyway i get a phone call at 130 in the morning so i go to see her... im at the hospital for like 6 hours n i get home at 7 am... i gotta be at work at 10, and work a 9 hour shift.. so ya... but then here comes the fucked up part..come to find out shes the typical 2 face fucking girl....she was talking to some nerdy ass kid at her work, and when i say nerdy lol i mean nerdy this kid looks like a jackoff.. (her mom was right =p) so that was a crash and burn situation becuz she told ( yay just got in a fight with my mom and cut my fingure open YIPPIE) me she wasnt going to hurt me again... let me refraze that told everyone she wasnt going to hurt me again..... well i should of guessed it cuz i could sense it from the begining that she was being wierd around me... but w.e.... well she hurt me again and there is another lie to add onto the list... whys it always seem to be in the end of are relationships ive always been the bad guy...? o yay and to top it off I GOT A FUCKING FLAT TIRE ON THE WAY HOME FROM ASSHOLES HOUSE TODAY!!! can anything else fuckign go wrong god damn!!!!!! o ya u guys wana hear something funny.... the reason i even made this god damn journal in the first place was to comment on caras when we first started talking like a year ago... wow...
funny thing is im wondering how many fucking people new her little secret and didnt tell me... o well, its the reason why i only have 1 best friend....
all i can think of is how many times she has lied to me, wondering what i believed if it was really true or not.... wondering if anything she ever said was even true.... ilove you... i wonder...
so now im never talking to her again, and i mean ever.... and it sucks becuz she was cool a ttimes... but hey i did nothing wrong... it sucks.. ther eis going to be alot of regret but hey nothing i can do... i have regret about shit myself....reminds me of a few months ago, i was friends with someone who i could say i would be friends with for many many years... and we got in a fight over something, and him and i are both stubborn and he doesnt want to talk to me ever again, and it really does suck... becuz like i said, i could picture myself his friend for many years....
well anyway im stuck in a burn state, i crashed like a mother fucker but ya....
ok um im doen m mother is fighting with em and i wana blow my brains out so ill give a big fuck you to everyone and you guys can read more next time i feel like takina clip cockin it back and havin ahole needing a waste of stiches...k?