Beautiful Eyes (5/?)
icTitle: Beautiful Eyes
Chapter: (5/?)
Pairing: RyoTego,NishiKato,TegoPi
Rating: PG (i think?)
Genre: Romance,Angst
A/N: i wrote this chapter because of listening in Tegomass's Ai Ai Gasa and find it the best song for my O.T.P.That's a very sweet song.
Summary: Ryo already made up his mind but he guess it's already too late now to fix everything.
Chapter 1 Chapter 2 Chapter 3 Chapter 4
“Yuya,Yamashita-kun is already waiting outside.Hurry” said by Tegoshi’s mom who is now preparing his breakfast at the kitchen.
“Yes Okaasan” answered Tegoshi and ran to reach their kitchen.”And please,how many times am I going to tell you,stop calling me Yuya,im not a baby anymore and its annoying” hissed Tegoshi.
“Why? Its cute.” teased by her Mom and hand Tegoshi the two bentos.Tegoshi just rolled his eyes and said his “ittekimasu” to his mother.
“Ohayou” waved Yamapi who is leaning his back on his car after he got out from their house. He looks casual even though he’s only wearing a plain green t-shirt and a low waisted jeans.
It’s almost been a month since he broke up with Ryo.He knows that the healing process is not that easy and fast so he manage to always keep to cheer up himself and don’t think about anything that is related to Ryo.Good thing that Yamapi is always by his side to make him smile and forget Ryo even for just awhile.
“Ohayou Yamashita-kun” greeted back by Tegoshi with a smile.
“Mou~ I said just call me Pi deshou” said Yamapi as he pouts and turned his back to Tegoshi with his arms crossed in his chest.
“Acting cute again” chuckled Tegoshi “Okay Okay.Ohayou PI” he emphasized Pi that made the Leader turned around to face him again and flashed him a wide grin.
“If you’re always like that Tesshi we’re gonna be always in good terms” smirked Yamapi as he open the front seat of his car for Tegoshi.
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The two of them arrived at the jimusho 45 minutes before the call time.Yamapi said that he’s gonna show a magazine to Tegoshi and will ask for his help to decide for his new look this Spring.They sat at the sofa facing the back of the door and the two of them started flipping the magazines.
“This one is good too.Look.Just find the right color for it to suit you.Black,white or pink I guess” Tegoshi explained to Yamapi and flipped the page of the magazine once again to look for another outfits.
“This one.Look at it Tesshi” said Yamapi and leaned his face near Tegoshi’s face.
“Where?” answered Tegoshi and move his face closer to Yamapi for him to see the magazine clearly.That was the scene when the door suddenly opened.It was Ryo and Shige who is now holding each other’s hand.Ryo got stunned seeing Yamapi’s face that close to Tegoshi but he decided not to show that his affected.He already prepared himself to meet Tegoshi again after the break up.He already said to himself that he must forget Tegoshi.But seeing the scenery in front of him right now makes him want to grab Tegoshi in it’s hand,pinned him on the wall and kiss him.How he miss those eyes who is now smiling,but now,not for him again.Ryo lowered his gaze at that thought.He tightened his grip in Shige’s hand and walked inside the dressing room.
“Ohayou” greeted Shige.Ryo almost curse Shige for greeting them.He don’t want Tegoshi to see the jealousy that’s still registered on his face.
Yamapi and Tegoshi turned their heads.”Good morning Shige” greeted back by Yamapi and smirked to Shige.Tegoshi just nod his head.
Tegoshi noticed the exchanging of smirks in Shige and Yamapi’s faces.He wonders what’s up with this two.He knows that Shige and Yamapi is lately always meeting up with each other which Yamapi just explained it as just hanging out.He’s sure that they’re not a couple cause Shige and Ryo are now back together.
That thought made him sad again inside his heart.He threw a gaze at Shige and Ryo’s intertwined fingers.He noticed that Ryo is holding Shige’s hand tightly like Shige might be stolen away from him.He let out a sad smile and went his gaze back to the magazines in the table.He’s happy cause looks like he made the right decision to let go Ryo.Ryo never held his hands tightly like that before.He wants to cry but he already said to himself that he won’t.He really love Shige,he thought.
“Shige,I forgot your cds in our house.I’ll give it back to you by Sunday ne”
“Daijobu~ I still don’t need it so take your time”
“Arigatou.Jaa~ I’ll go buy some Soda at the vending machine” said Yamapi as he stood up and walk towards the door.
Tegoshi snapped back to reality when he notice Yamapi already left him on the couch.He don’t want to be with this couple.Not right now when he’s not yet over with Ryo.
“Pi! Chotto~ I-I’ll come with you!” shouts Tegoshi and ran to Yamapi who is now already at door.
“Let’s go” and Yamapi put his hands at Tegoshi’s waist to pull him close which the younger boy also did.
Since when did Yuyas started calling Yamapi Pi!!?? He said to himself. Ryo felt his heart hurt when he saw Tegoshi smiled to Yamapi when the two exit the dressing room Seems like Tegoshi is now happy living a life without him,he thought.Besides,Ryo receives news that Tegoshi clings to Yamapi often lately and looks like Tegoshi is not thinking about him anymore.He want it this way.To forget everything about them and to be happy as Tegoshi had wished.But still,he feels sad.
Shige snapped him back to reality.Ryo just smiled at him and the two of them sat on the couch.
Ryo asked Shige to be his boyfriend again cause he was hurt when Tegoshi insisted that he still loves Shige.Shige don’t want it at first but Ryo said they will try to work things out again.He admitted that he still have feelings towards Shige but Tegoshi is the one who made him feel complete and happy so he’s sure that he loves Tegoshi more than Shige.He asked Tegoshi to trust only his words which the younger boy had promised he will do.And thinking about that promise made him feel disappointed.He thought that Tegoshi will keep his promise.
But Tegoshi left.He can’t believe that Tegoshi’s trust at him is just like that.
He let out a big sigh cause he felt his chest became heavy.He will cope up with this,he said to himself and closed his eyes in Shige’s shoulder.
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“Listen Minna.We were having a concert tour for spring this whole month of April.Everybody have their assigned rooms at the hotels we were staying in that I am now going to announce so that we won’t have any problems anymore once we’ve arrived there” said the manager of News.The members are very excited since this will gonna be a surely big concert for the release of their new album.But not Ryo and Tegoshi.They know this is going to be fun but thinking of more time spending with each other because of group activities makes them feel uncomfortable.
“Okay.Yamapi and Massu.The two of you are roommates.Koyama and Shige,share the same room with each other and lastly” manager-san’s pause.
“Ryo and Tegoshi obviously.That are your roommates until the concert tour ended.Any questions?” calmly explained by the manager who didn’t notice the two pairs of widened eyes at the back of him.
Yamapi walked besides Massu and said something.Massu grinned and just nod his head.Yamapi pull out a bar of chocolate inside his pocket and gave it to Massu.
“No questions.So I’ll see you guys tomorrow in the hotel ne.Make sure to arrange your things early so that we can start practicing by afternoon.Rest ne.Ganbatte” smiled Manager-san at Yamapi and to the others members.
Tegoshi immediately ran to Massu who is now eating the chocolates that Yamapi gave to him.
“Massu,can you please do me a favor?” said Tegoshi with pleading eyes.
“Wort ish it?” answered Massu while his mouth was full and stuffed by chocolates.
“Can I exchange rooms with you? You know,ahmm,Pi is your roommate and I want to be with him for the whole concert to teach me dance steps since im not good at them.So can we?” Tegoshi explained to Massu.He knows in himself that it’s not the real reason really.He doesn’t want to be with Ryo in the same room.Never.He would choose to die right now than to share a room with him.
“Im sorry.But Yamapi already asked me to bring my pillows tomorrow.He said that my pillows are comfortable and he’s gonna use it after our concert so that he can relax himself.”
“Let him Borrow it.I will be the one to give it back to you in the morning.Onegai Massu” bowed Tesshi.
“Gomen.I also can’t sleep without my pillow” apologized Masuda.
Tegoshi lift up his head.“Sou ka.Thank you anyway” disappointed answer of Tegoshi and he walked towards the door and went outside.
Ryo noticed Tegoshi’s face as he went out of the door.He also don’t want to share a room with Tegoshi.But there’s nothing he can do about it.Come what may.He also thinks that it is the best way for them to be good friends again.They can’t be like this forever.They’re gonna be groupmates for a long time and not talking to each other might effect the group.not only them.He sighed once again.
“Why I can’t be happy?” he murmured.
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“Massu can’t sleep without his own pillow,Yamapi is sleeping with Massu also because of that stupid pillow,I can’t exchange rooms with Kei-chan either.I also don’t want to be with Shige.There’s no other choice but to share a room with Ryo” pouts Tegoshi.
“Kill me now.Anyone onegai” Tesshi mumbled while entering the comfort room.
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“Ryo” called Shige.The two of them are now heading to the said hotel for them to stay in for the rest of the concert tour.
“Nani?” answered Ryo.
“Why don’t you just get back together with Tegoshi?”
Ryo obviously became affected by that question of Shige. “You’re really a straightforward person ne” laughed Ryo trying to change the topic.
“Answer me.I know that you love me but I can feel that you love Tegoshi more”
“Im focusing on you right now Shige.Im trying again to love you the way it used to be before.Im trying to forget Tegoshi since he is the one who said that I should be happy with you.That im already doing right now so don’t ask that again ne.I love you” insisted Ryo and hold Shige’s hand tightly.
“I know.But you should follow your heart ne”
“Shige..”
“Okay Okay.I’ll stop.” smiled Shige and rest the back of his head on the seat.
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Ryo arrived at the hotel with Shige 2 hours before lunch.Shige told Ryo to rest first and get down at the lobby at lunch to meet the staffs and the other members.Shige kissed Ryo in his cheeks and headed to his room at the left side of the hallway.Ryo is still nervous to be with Tegoshi in the same room but there’s nothing he can do with it anymore.It’s been weeks since they last talked to each other and that last conversation of them is not a good one either.
He let out a very deep breath before he clicked the doorknob and entered the room and to his surprise,see Tegoshi already arranging his things on his bed.His back is facing the door and it seems like Tesshi doesn’t noticed him yet.Ryo wants to start a conversation with Tegoshi but he don’t know why it seems like his tounge was missing and he can’t produce any words even for just a simple “Ohayou”.The younger boy hanged his clothes in a hanger and turned around to go to the cabinet and also to his surprise to see Ryo standing at the door.The two of them looked at each other for some seconds but Tegoshi is the first one who looked away.He turned around again and quickly stuffed all his things back to his bag on the top of the bed.Ryo was about to open his mouth to greet Tegoshi but it’s too late cause Tegoshi already ran to the door and went outside.
Ryo felt his eyes got wet after Tegoshi left the room.It’s painful to see the eyes that used to stare at him adoringly and lovingly is now looking at him with full of fears and pain which he don’t know where is that fear coming from.He didn’t want it to be like this.That Tegoshi will treat him like an invisible and worts,will be scared at him.He looked at the ceiling to prevent his tears from falling down.He already prepared himself for this kind of situation but he really can’t forget the fear on Tegoshi’s eyes when they met them.He can’t believe that Tegoshi is now scared at him.He laid his body on his bed and started to sob until he fell asleep.
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“Arigatou for the dinner Pi.Our practice is really tiring and you really made me feel relaxed” smiled Tesshi.Yamapi send Tegoshi to his room after their dinner.
“Moch! I know that you’re just avoiding somebody inside that room so I accompany you” grinned Yamapi.
Tegoshi pouted.”You know that I don’t want to be with him ne.Not now.It’s still fresh” Tegoshi said as he puts his hand on his chest and smiled sadly at Yamapi."I m already afraid of him.Im afraid that he will hurt me again so im not talking to him.I don't know why but everytime his near me,i feel scared." sad statement of Tegoshi.
Yamapi smiled back to Tegoshi but a smile with sympathy.He’d been with Tegoshi for almost a month after he broke up with Ryo.He knows the heartache that Tegoshi had gone through.Every tears that fell from his eyes,he know that is all for Ryo.And maybe Tegoshi now being afraid of Ryo is already a Trauma.But Tegoshi do did his best to be the Tegoshi he is right now.A Tegoshi who is already fighting over with his emotions everytime Ryo is around.This younger boy shows that his strong to others,but still he knows that he’s really broken inside.That’s why he always manage to be by his side.To always cheer him up.He knows that Tegoshi is not worth the pain he is feeling right now.
“Jaa~ Oyasumi ne Pi.Thank you.I guess he’s already asleep by this time so I can now enter the room” said Tegoshi and forced himself to smile at Yamapi despite of the nervousness he is feeling right now.
“Ganbatte ne Tegoshi,Oyasumi” Yamapi let out an evil grin before he came back to his room.Tegoshi pouted once again and waved to Yamapi.
Tegoshi let out a deep breath before he clicked the doorknob.He first show off his head to check if Ryo is already sleeping.The lights are out and only one of the desk lamps near their bed is open.He sighed when he saw Ryo already sleeping soundly on the bed but got pissed when he remembered that there’s only one bed inside that room.It’s big but still,he’s gonna sleep with Ryo on the same bed.No sofa or even chair to sleep on.He changed his clothes and slowly climbed to the bed.He manage to stay at the far side of the bed far away from Ryo so that they won’t have any body contact.
After 10 minutes,he still can’t sleep.Just the thought that Ryo is just sleeping near him makes him want to die when suddenly Ryo sneezed.He got stiffened and immediately tilted his head to check if Ryo is awake.But the older boy’s eyes is still closed.
Tegoshi can’t help but looked at Ryo’s face.He’s sleeping like a baby angel with that innocent face of him.It’s been a long time since he last stared at Ryo’s face like that.Nothing had changed.He still have the most handsome face he had ever seen in his whole life.How he miss the way Ryo talks to him lovingly with his face so close to him like that.That nose he always pick when he tries to wake Ryo up.That lips who is always smiling back at him.
Tears unexpectedly fell from his eyes.He miss Ryo.He doesn’t want to admit it to anyone or even in himself but he miss Ryo so badly.He wants to close his eyes and pretend this was all just a dream that when he opened it again,He will see Ryo in front of his face,holding his hands and will say I love you to him.He lift his hand to touch Ryo’s face but he remembered that those dreams were not going to happen anymore.He know that Ryo loved him but he love Shige more and they’re together again.
How shocked he was when Massu texted him that he saw Ryo and Shige came out from the car in front of the Jimusho and arms wrapped around each others waists.He fainted in his house but good thing Yamapi dropped by and saw Tegoshi lying on the floor.When he woke up,he hugged Yamapi and cried the whole day in his arms.He can’t believe that Ryo will get back to Shige that fast.
He didn’t continue to touch Ryo’s face.He withdraw his hands.He turned around and let his tears fell nonstop from his eyes.He cover his mouth so that Ryo will not woke up in his sobs.
Just when the time he turned his body around,Ryo opened his eyes.He’s not actually sleeping.He waited for Tegoshi for them to talk but when the time Tesshi entered the room,Ryo remembered that Tegoshi is scared of him so he pretended to be sleeping so that Tegoshi will already come inside.But he got nervous when Tegoshi already laid on the bed so he decided to just sleep.He felt that somebody is staring at him and he’s sure that it was Tegoshi so he didn’t sleep and wait for some actions from Tegoshi but he couldn’t stand it anymore when he already heard Tegoshi’s sob like it wants to cry it all out loud but forcing himself not too so he opened his eyes.
Ryo looked up at the ceiling.He hates himself for causing Tegoshi to be hurt this much.He love this younger boy and he is sure about that.But Shige,Ryo also loves him but compared to Tegoshi,he is much happier when with Tesshi.Shige is cool and also fun to be with but there’s something with Tegoshi that made his feelings relaxed everytime they’re together.He wants Tegoshi back but he don’t know where he is going to start and the worst Tegoshi is now scared at him.
He’s gonna talk to Tegoshi to say he’s sorry but he already stopped sobbing.He’s already asleep,he guess.He got up from the other side of the bed and went to Tegoshi’s side.He opened the other desk lamp near the bed for him to see clearly Tegoshi’s face.He see a tear still gathered in his eyes even though he’s already sleeping.He pull the blanket up to Tegoshi’s shoulder and wipe the tears in his eyes.He leaned closer and kissed Tegoshi’s forehead gently.He stood up and went back to his sleep.
He is going to fix everything.He don’t want to hurt anyone anymore.Especially,Tegoshi.
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Ryo woke up and as expected,Tegoshi had already left.
“He’s really trying his best to ignore and avoid me ne.Coming late and leaving early” disappointed statement of Ryo.He immediately took a bath and went to the lobby where all of them are going to gather to head to the rehearsal of their concert.
Ryo is now sitting beside Shige in the lobby who is now reviewing his law book.They’re all waiting for the other staffs.He will talk to Shige after their concert,he said to himself.He will apologized and say his sorry.He knows he’s gonna hurt Shige again but he can’t find any reasons anymore for them to still continue this relationship.
Ryo sipped a coffee from his cup when he heard loud laughters.It was Yamapi and Tegoshi.Tegoshi is laughing at their super big sunglasses.Yamapi bought it on their way at the hotel yesterday.Ryo see Tegoshi laughing again like that.A wide smile in his face and looks very happy playing with Yamapi and his sunglasses Again,he got disappointed but he is determined to win Tegoshi’s heart again.When Tegoshi looked at him,Ryo smiled and was about to greet “Ohayou” when suddenly Tegoshi’s face expression had changed when he sees him.Tegoshi quickly looked away and follow Yamapi who sits on the couch in front of Ryo and Shige.
After a few minutes,Manager-san already arrived and the 6 of them was asked to ride the bus no.2. Manager-san said that it will take 9 hours to reach Osaka so they should relax to be in the mood for the rehearsal.Yamapi and Tegoshi sat together.Ryo And Shige are behind them and Kei and Massu at the back eating the gyoza that Kei’s mom had brought for the 6 of them but only Massu is the one who is eating all of them.Ryo is annoyed of Yamapi being clingy to Tegoshi so he put his arms around Shige’s shoulder but Shige took it off.
“Im studying.Gomen ne Ryo-chan” said Shige and kiss Ryo’s cheek.
Ryo has nothing to do with it anymore.He rest his head on the seat and closed his eyes.He can’t stand seeing Tegoshi in Yamapi’s shoulder cuddling each other like a real couple.He should be the one who is now relaxing in Tegoshi’s head and not Yamapi.
“I’ll kill you Pi.I thought you’re my bestfriend” mumbled Ryo as he close his eyes and put his mp3 on it’s fullest sound so that he can’t hear Tegoshi’s laugh to Yamapi.It’s stabbing him.
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They already arrived at the rehearsal and already taking their break.Tegoshi went to the dressing room to get his t-shirt changed cause it’s already wet from sweat.Ryo thinks that it’s now a good timing to talk to Tegoshi so he followed it at the dressing room.
He find Tegoshi drinking a water while the other hand is searching for some T-shirt.He looks so sexy because of his wet t-shirt that shows his slim body.He can hear Tegoshi humming some tune.
His in a good mood.Ganbatte Ryo-chan.
He already started talking.
“I-it’s tiring ne Yuya” Ryo’s voice stuttered but he really want to be in good terms with Tegoshi.
Tegoshi jumped off from the couch when he heard Ryo’s voice that caused him to lost his balance and stumbled on the floor.
Ryo ran to Tegoshi.”Daijobu Yuya? Are you ok?” asked Ryo and helped Tegoshi to stand up but to his surprise when Tegoshi got shocked from his touch and shook off his hands away from his arms and stared at him so scared.
Ryo got surprised from Tegoshi’s reaction.The younger boy is looking at him with his eyes widened.He was about to ask Tegoshi what’s wrong but he already ran and went outside of the dressing room.
Ryo is still stiffened from what had happened.He didn’t expect that Tegoshi is so scared at him like that.He doesn’t know what to do now.
“He must be really mad at me” said Ryo to himself and ran his both hands in his hair to face.
“Tegoshi I love you"
Long enough deshou?
Gomen for the super long wait~
I really made it long so that you won’t stab me~
Comments are love weeee~
Arigatou for waiting~
Chapter: (5/?)
Pairing: RyoTego,NishiKato,TegoPi
Rating: PG (i think?)
Genre: Romance,Angst
A/N: i wrote this chapter because of listening in Tegomass's Ai Ai Gasa and find it the best song for my O.T.P.That's a very sweet song.
Summary: Ryo already made up his mind but he guess it's already too late now to fix everything.
Chapter 1 Chapter 2 Chapter 3 Chapter 4
“Yuya,Yamashita-kun is already waiting outside.Hurry” said by Tegoshi’s mom who is now preparing his breakfast at the kitchen.
“Yes Okaasan” answered Tegoshi and ran to reach their kitchen.”And please,how many times am I going to tell you,stop calling me Yuya,im not a baby anymore and its annoying” hissed Tegoshi.
“Why? Its cute.” teased by her Mom and hand Tegoshi the two bentos.Tegoshi just rolled his eyes and said his “ittekimasu” to his mother.
“Ohayou” waved Yamapi who is leaning his back on his car after he got out from their house. He looks casual even though he’s only wearing a plain green t-shirt and a low waisted jeans.
It’s almost been a month since he broke up with Ryo.He knows that the healing process is not that easy and fast so he manage to always keep to cheer up himself and don’t think about anything that is related to Ryo.Good thing that Yamapi is always by his side to make him smile and forget Ryo even for just awhile.
“Ohayou Yamashita-kun” greeted back by Tegoshi with a smile.
“Mou~ I said just call me Pi deshou” said Yamapi as he pouts and turned his back to Tegoshi with his arms crossed in his chest.
“Acting cute again” chuckled Tegoshi “Okay Okay.Ohayou PI” he emphasized Pi that made the Leader turned around to face him again and flashed him a wide grin.
“If you’re always like that Tesshi we’re gonna be always in good terms” smirked Yamapi as he open the front seat of his car for Tegoshi.
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The two of them arrived at the jimusho 45 minutes before the call time.Yamapi said that he’s gonna show a magazine to Tegoshi and will ask for his help to decide for his new look this Spring.They sat at the sofa facing the back of the door and the two of them started flipping the magazines.
“This one is good too.Look.Just find the right color for it to suit you.Black,white or pink I guess” Tegoshi explained to Yamapi and flipped the page of the magazine once again to look for another outfits.
“This one.Look at it Tesshi” said Yamapi and leaned his face near Tegoshi’s face.
“Where?” answered Tegoshi and move his face closer to Yamapi for him to see the magazine clearly.That was the scene when the door suddenly opened.It was Ryo and Shige who is now holding each other’s hand.Ryo got stunned seeing Yamapi’s face that close to Tegoshi but he decided not to show that his affected.He already prepared himself to meet Tegoshi again after the break up.He already said to himself that he must forget Tegoshi.But seeing the scenery in front of him right now makes him want to grab Tegoshi in it’s hand,pinned him on the wall and kiss him.How he miss those eyes who is now smiling,but now,not for him again.Ryo lowered his gaze at that thought.He tightened his grip in Shige’s hand and walked inside the dressing room.
“Ohayou” greeted Shige.Ryo almost curse Shige for greeting them.He don’t want Tegoshi to see the jealousy that’s still registered on his face.
Yamapi and Tegoshi turned their heads.”Good morning Shige” greeted back by Yamapi and smirked to Shige.Tegoshi just nod his head.
Tegoshi noticed the exchanging of smirks in Shige and Yamapi’s faces.He wonders what’s up with this two.He knows that Shige and Yamapi is lately always meeting up with each other which Yamapi just explained it as just hanging out.He’s sure that they’re not a couple cause Shige and Ryo are now back together.
That thought made him sad again inside his heart.He threw a gaze at Shige and Ryo’s intertwined fingers.He noticed that Ryo is holding Shige’s hand tightly like Shige might be stolen away from him.He let out a sad smile and went his gaze back to the magazines in the table.He’s happy cause looks like he made the right decision to let go Ryo.Ryo never held his hands tightly like that before.He wants to cry but he already said to himself that he won’t.He really love Shige,he thought.
“Shige,I forgot your cds in our house.I’ll give it back to you by Sunday ne”
“Daijobu~ I still don’t need it so take your time”
“Arigatou.Jaa~ I’ll go buy some Soda at the vending machine” said Yamapi as he stood up and walk towards the door.
Tegoshi snapped back to reality when he notice Yamapi already left him on the couch.He don’t want to be with this couple.Not right now when he’s not yet over with Ryo.
“Pi! Chotto~ I-I’ll come with you!” shouts Tegoshi and ran to Yamapi who is now already at door.
“Let’s go” and Yamapi put his hands at Tegoshi’s waist to pull him close which the younger boy also did.
Since when did Yuyas started calling Yamapi Pi!!?? He said to himself. Ryo felt his heart hurt when he saw Tegoshi smiled to Yamapi when the two exit the dressing room Seems like Tegoshi is now happy living a life without him,he thought.Besides,Ryo receives news that Tegoshi clings to Yamapi often lately and looks like Tegoshi is not thinking about him anymore.He want it this way.To forget everything about them and to be happy as Tegoshi had wished.But still,he feels sad.
Shige snapped him back to reality.Ryo just smiled at him and the two of them sat on the couch.
Ryo asked Shige to be his boyfriend again cause he was hurt when Tegoshi insisted that he still loves Shige.Shige don’t want it at first but Ryo said they will try to work things out again.He admitted that he still have feelings towards Shige but Tegoshi is the one who made him feel complete and happy so he’s sure that he loves Tegoshi more than Shige.He asked Tegoshi to trust only his words which the younger boy had promised he will do.And thinking about that promise made him feel disappointed.He thought that Tegoshi will keep his promise.
But Tegoshi left.He can’t believe that Tegoshi’s trust at him is just like that.
He let out a big sigh cause he felt his chest became heavy.He will cope up with this,he said to himself and closed his eyes in Shige’s shoulder.
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“Listen Minna.We were having a concert tour for spring this whole month of April.Everybody have their assigned rooms at the hotels we were staying in that I am now going to announce so that we won’t have any problems anymore once we’ve arrived there” said the manager of News.The members are very excited since this will gonna be a surely big concert for the release of their new album.But not Ryo and Tegoshi.They know this is going to be fun but thinking of more time spending with each other because of group activities makes them feel uncomfortable.
“Okay.Yamapi and Massu.The two of you are roommates.Koyama and Shige,share the same room with each other and lastly” manager-san’s pause.
“Ryo and Tegoshi obviously.That are your roommates until the concert tour ended.Any questions?” calmly explained by the manager who didn’t notice the two pairs of widened eyes at the back of him.
Yamapi walked besides Massu and said something.Massu grinned and just nod his head.Yamapi pull out a bar of chocolate inside his pocket and gave it to Massu.
“No questions.So I’ll see you guys tomorrow in the hotel ne.Make sure to arrange your things early so that we can start practicing by afternoon.Rest ne.Ganbatte” smiled Manager-san at Yamapi and to the others members.
Tegoshi immediately ran to Massu who is now eating the chocolates that Yamapi gave to him.
“Massu,can you please do me a favor?” said Tegoshi with pleading eyes.
“Wort ish it?” answered Massu while his mouth was full and stuffed by chocolates.
“Can I exchange rooms with you? You know,ahmm,Pi is your roommate and I want to be with him for the whole concert to teach me dance steps since im not good at them.So can we?” Tegoshi explained to Massu.He knows in himself that it’s not the real reason really.He doesn’t want to be with Ryo in the same room.Never.He would choose to die right now than to share a room with him.
“Im sorry.But Yamapi already asked me to bring my pillows tomorrow.He said that my pillows are comfortable and he’s gonna use it after our concert so that he can relax himself.”
“Let him Borrow it.I will be the one to give it back to you in the morning.Onegai Massu” bowed Tesshi.
“Gomen.I also can’t sleep without my pillow” apologized Masuda.
Tegoshi lift up his head.“Sou ka.Thank you anyway” disappointed answer of Tegoshi and he walked towards the door and went outside.
Ryo noticed Tegoshi’s face as he went out of the door.He also don’t want to share a room with Tegoshi.But there’s nothing he can do about it.Come what may.He also thinks that it is the best way for them to be good friends again.They can’t be like this forever.They’re gonna be groupmates for a long time and not talking to each other might effect the group.not only them.He sighed once again.
“Why I can’t be happy?” he murmured.
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“Massu can’t sleep without his own pillow,Yamapi is sleeping with Massu also because of that stupid pillow,I can’t exchange rooms with Kei-chan either.I also don’t want to be with Shige.There’s no other choice but to share a room with Ryo” pouts Tegoshi.
“Kill me now.Anyone onegai” Tesshi mumbled while entering the comfort room.
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“Ryo” called Shige.The two of them are now heading to the said hotel for them to stay in for the rest of the concert tour.
“Nani?” answered Ryo.
“Why don’t you just get back together with Tegoshi?”
Ryo obviously became affected by that question of Shige. “You’re really a straightforward person ne” laughed Ryo trying to change the topic.
“Answer me.I know that you love me but I can feel that you love Tegoshi more”
“Im focusing on you right now Shige.Im trying again to love you the way it used to be before.Im trying to forget Tegoshi since he is the one who said that I should be happy with you.That im already doing right now so don’t ask that again ne.I love you” insisted Ryo and hold Shige’s hand tightly.
“I know.But you should follow your heart ne”
“Shige..”
“Okay Okay.I’ll stop.” smiled Shige and rest the back of his head on the seat.
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Ryo arrived at the hotel with Shige 2 hours before lunch.Shige told Ryo to rest first and get down at the lobby at lunch to meet the staffs and the other members.Shige kissed Ryo in his cheeks and headed to his room at the left side of the hallway.Ryo is still nervous to be with Tegoshi in the same room but there’s nothing he can do with it anymore.It’s been weeks since they last talked to each other and that last conversation of them is not a good one either.
He let out a very deep breath before he clicked the doorknob and entered the room and to his surprise,see Tegoshi already arranging his things on his bed.His back is facing the door and it seems like Tesshi doesn’t noticed him yet.Ryo wants to start a conversation with Tegoshi but he don’t know why it seems like his tounge was missing and he can’t produce any words even for just a simple “Ohayou”.The younger boy hanged his clothes in a hanger and turned around to go to the cabinet and also to his surprise to see Ryo standing at the door.The two of them looked at each other for some seconds but Tegoshi is the first one who looked away.He turned around again and quickly stuffed all his things back to his bag on the top of the bed.Ryo was about to open his mouth to greet Tegoshi but it’s too late cause Tegoshi already ran to the door and went outside.
Ryo felt his eyes got wet after Tegoshi left the room.It’s painful to see the eyes that used to stare at him adoringly and lovingly is now looking at him with full of fears and pain which he don’t know where is that fear coming from.He didn’t want it to be like this.That Tegoshi will treat him like an invisible and worts,will be scared at him.He looked at the ceiling to prevent his tears from falling down.He already prepared himself for this kind of situation but he really can’t forget the fear on Tegoshi’s eyes when they met them.He can’t believe that Tegoshi is now scared at him.He laid his body on his bed and started to sob until he fell asleep.
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“Arigatou for the dinner Pi.Our practice is really tiring and you really made me feel relaxed” smiled Tesshi.Yamapi send Tegoshi to his room after their dinner.
“Moch! I know that you’re just avoiding somebody inside that room so I accompany you” grinned Yamapi.
Tegoshi pouted.”You know that I don’t want to be with him ne.Not now.It’s still fresh” Tegoshi said as he puts his hand on his chest and smiled sadly at Yamapi."I m already afraid of him.Im afraid that he will hurt me again so im not talking to him.I don't know why but everytime his near me,i feel scared." sad statement of Tegoshi.
Yamapi smiled back to Tegoshi but a smile with sympathy.He’d been with Tegoshi for almost a month after he broke up with Ryo.He knows the heartache that Tegoshi had gone through.Every tears that fell from his eyes,he know that is all for Ryo.And maybe Tegoshi now being afraid of Ryo is already a Trauma.But Tegoshi do did his best to be the Tegoshi he is right now.A Tegoshi who is already fighting over with his emotions everytime Ryo is around.This younger boy shows that his strong to others,but still he knows that he’s really broken inside.That’s why he always manage to be by his side.To always cheer him up.He knows that Tegoshi is not worth the pain he is feeling right now.
“Jaa~ Oyasumi ne Pi.Thank you.I guess he’s already asleep by this time so I can now enter the room” said Tegoshi and forced himself to smile at Yamapi despite of the nervousness he is feeling right now.
“Ganbatte ne Tegoshi,Oyasumi” Yamapi let out an evil grin before he came back to his room.Tegoshi pouted once again and waved to Yamapi.
Tegoshi let out a deep breath before he clicked the doorknob.He first show off his head to check if Ryo is already sleeping.The lights are out and only one of the desk lamps near their bed is open.He sighed when he saw Ryo already sleeping soundly on the bed but got pissed when he remembered that there’s only one bed inside that room.It’s big but still,he’s gonna sleep with Ryo on the same bed.No sofa or even chair to sleep on.He changed his clothes and slowly climbed to the bed.He manage to stay at the far side of the bed far away from Ryo so that they won’t have any body contact.
After 10 minutes,he still can’t sleep.Just the thought that Ryo is just sleeping near him makes him want to die when suddenly Ryo sneezed.He got stiffened and immediately tilted his head to check if Ryo is awake.But the older boy’s eyes is still closed.
Tegoshi can’t help but looked at Ryo’s face.He’s sleeping like a baby angel with that innocent face of him.It’s been a long time since he last stared at Ryo’s face like that.Nothing had changed.He still have the most handsome face he had ever seen in his whole life.How he miss the way Ryo talks to him lovingly with his face so close to him like that.That nose he always pick when he tries to wake Ryo up.That lips who is always smiling back at him.
Tears unexpectedly fell from his eyes.He miss Ryo.He doesn’t want to admit it to anyone or even in himself but he miss Ryo so badly.He wants to close his eyes and pretend this was all just a dream that when he opened it again,He will see Ryo in front of his face,holding his hands and will say I love you to him.He lift his hand to touch Ryo’s face but he remembered that those dreams were not going to happen anymore.He know that Ryo loved him but he love Shige more and they’re together again.
How shocked he was when Massu texted him that he saw Ryo and Shige came out from the car in front of the Jimusho and arms wrapped around each others waists.He fainted in his house but good thing Yamapi dropped by and saw Tegoshi lying on the floor.When he woke up,he hugged Yamapi and cried the whole day in his arms.He can’t believe that Ryo will get back to Shige that fast.
He didn’t continue to touch Ryo’s face.He withdraw his hands.He turned around and let his tears fell nonstop from his eyes.He cover his mouth so that Ryo will not woke up in his sobs.
Just when the time he turned his body around,Ryo opened his eyes.He’s not actually sleeping.He waited for Tegoshi for them to talk but when the time Tesshi entered the room,Ryo remembered that Tegoshi is scared of him so he pretended to be sleeping so that Tegoshi will already come inside.But he got nervous when Tegoshi already laid on the bed so he decided to just sleep.He felt that somebody is staring at him and he’s sure that it was Tegoshi so he didn’t sleep and wait for some actions from Tegoshi but he couldn’t stand it anymore when he already heard Tegoshi’s sob like it wants to cry it all out loud but forcing himself not too so he opened his eyes.
Ryo looked up at the ceiling.He hates himself for causing Tegoshi to be hurt this much.He love this younger boy and he is sure about that.But Shige,Ryo also loves him but compared to Tegoshi,he is much happier when with Tesshi.Shige is cool and also fun to be with but there’s something with Tegoshi that made his feelings relaxed everytime they’re together.He wants Tegoshi back but he don’t know where he is going to start and the worst Tegoshi is now scared at him.
He’s gonna talk to Tegoshi to say he’s sorry but he already stopped sobbing.He’s already asleep,he guess.He got up from the other side of the bed and went to Tegoshi’s side.He opened the other desk lamp near the bed for him to see clearly Tegoshi’s face.He see a tear still gathered in his eyes even though he’s already sleeping.He pull the blanket up to Tegoshi’s shoulder and wipe the tears in his eyes.He leaned closer and kissed Tegoshi’s forehead gently.He stood up and went back to his sleep.
He is going to fix everything.He don’t want to hurt anyone anymore.Especially,Tegoshi.
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Ryo woke up and as expected,Tegoshi had already left.
“He’s really trying his best to ignore and avoid me ne.Coming late and leaving early” disappointed statement of Ryo.He immediately took a bath and went to the lobby where all of them are going to gather to head to the rehearsal of their concert.
Ryo is now sitting beside Shige in the lobby who is now reviewing his law book.They’re all waiting for the other staffs.He will talk to Shige after their concert,he said to himself.He will apologized and say his sorry.He knows he’s gonna hurt Shige again but he can’t find any reasons anymore for them to still continue this relationship.
Ryo sipped a coffee from his cup when he heard loud laughters.It was Yamapi and Tegoshi.Tegoshi is laughing at their super big sunglasses.Yamapi bought it on their way at the hotel yesterday.Ryo see Tegoshi laughing again like that.A wide smile in his face and looks very happy playing with Yamapi and his sunglasses Again,he got disappointed but he is determined to win Tegoshi’s heart again.When Tegoshi looked at him,Ryo smiled and was about to greet “Ohayou” when suddenly Tegoshi’s face expression had changed when he sees him.Tegoshi quickly looked away and follow Yamapi who sits on the couch in front of Ryo and Shige.
After a few minutes,Manager-san already arrived and the 6 of them was asked to ride the bus no.2. Manager-san said that it will take 9 hours to reach Osaka so they should relax to be in the mood for the rehearsal.Yamapi and Tegoshi sat together.Ryo And Shige are behind them and Kei and Massu at the back eating the gyoza that Kei’s mom had brought for the 6 of them but only Massu is the one who is eating all of them.Ryo is annoyed of Yamapi being clingy to Tegoshi so he put his arms around Shige’s shoulder but Shige took it off.
“Im studying.Gomen ne Ryo-chan” said Shige and kiss Ryo’s cheek.
Ryo has nothing to do with it anymore.He rest his head on the seat and closed his eyes.He can’t stand seeing Tegoshi in Yamapi’s shoulder cuddling each other like a real couple.He should be the one who is now relaxing in Tegoshi’s head and not Yamapi.
“I’ll kill you Pi.I thought you’re my bestfriend” mumbled Ryo as he close his eyes and put his mp3 on it’s fullest sound so that he can’t hear Tegoshi’s laugh to Yamapi.It’s stabbing him.
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They already arrived at the rehearsal and already taking their break.Tegoshi went to the dressing room to get his t-shirt changed cause it’s already wet from sweat.Ryo thinks that it’s now a good timing to talk to Tegoshi so he followed it at the dressing room.
He find Tegoshi drinking a water while the other hand is searching for some T-shirt.He looks so sexy because of his wet t-shirt that shows his slim body.He can hear Tegoshi humming some tune.
His in a good mood.Ganbatte Ryo-chan.
He already started talking.
“I-it’s tiring ne Yuya” Ryo’s voice stuttered but he really want to be in good terms with Tegoshi.
Tegoshi jumped off from the couch when he heard Ryo’s voice that caused him to lost his balance and stumbled on the floor.
Ryo ran to Tegoshi.”Daijobu Yuya? Are you ok?” asked Ryo and helped Tegoshi to stand up but to his surprise when Tegoshi got shocked from his touch and shook off his hands away from his arms and stared at him so scared.
Ryo got surprised from Tegoshi’s reaction.The younger boy is looking at him with his eyes widened.He was about to ask Tegoshi what’s wrong but he already ran and went outside of the dressing room.
Ryo is still stiffened from what had happened.He didn’t expect that Tegoshi is so scared at him like that.He doesn’t know what to do now.
“He must be really mad at me” said Ryo to himself and ran his both hands in his hair to face.
“Tegoshi I love you"
Long enough deshou?
Gomen for the super long wait~
I really made it long so that you won’t stab me~
Comments are love weeee~
Arigatou for waiting~