"I am a whore I do confess"
Yes,the title is from a song. A Derek Webb song. Not only that,but my FAVORITE Christian song. The title is "Wedding Dress" for those interested. And that lyric perfectly describes my mood. Im convicted....about this and that. Not just spiritually but emotionally, mentally. On so many levels I am just exhausted. Im compelled to take life to the next step. I already speak my mind...and yet God is calling me out on my lack of boldness. I think he means about Political issues. Not that my way is neccesarily the Christian way as far as God goes...but you know...the whole thing about "Even if their passionate about the wrong thing. At least they are passionate." I mean...im a little more open with my political views than most, but im also a little more involved. Perhaps an online forum or sumthin is what he wants? I dunno, ill pray about it more.
I hate being in a bad mood. When im in a bad mood, I get jealous, and I get REALLY sarcastic. The other day, when I was in a bad mood, Stephi was talking about facebook, and I heard the word fratguy. And it didn't matter that they were just friends...people she barely knew. I got jealous. Ugh....so stupid. I hate being jealous. It shows a lack of trust. And I trust Stephi SO much. Needless to say, I definetly have room for improvement as a boyfriend. Im REALLY far from perfect. I really dont do some of the things I should. I've really felt bad about that lately. Oh well.
Which brings me to my last conclusion. Im just not a real good person. Today a girl with crutches walked into wal-mart today,dropped a can of coke, and I just watched her struggle to pick it up. I didn't even THINK, HEY! She needs help! That bothers me. I shoulda helped. OH well, I did give a little kid 3 quarters so he could buy a coke though. That was cool.
Lastly. Im extremely excited about this up-coming week. Its the seniors last week, and although ill miss a handful of them-After they leave I can declare myself a senior. So I want em to get the heck out. Anyways...Senior testing is this week. So ya,thats cool. Classes are all misconstrued. So thats really fun. Well, its time to go. Much love,later.
I hate being in a bad mood. When im in a bad mood, I get jealous, and I get REALLY sarcastic. The other day, when I was in a bad mood, Stephi was talking about facebook, and I heard the word fratguy. And it didn't matter that they were just friends...people she barely knew. I got jealous. Ugh....so stupid. I hate being jealous. It shows a lack of trust. And I trust Stephi SO much. Needless to say, I definetly have room for improvement as a boyfriend. Im REALLY far from perfect. I really dont do some of the things I should. I've really felt bad about that lately. Oh well.
Which brings me to my last conclusion. Im just not a real good person. Today a girl with crutches walked into wal-mart today,dropped a can of coke, and I just watched her struggle to pick it up. I didn't even THINK, HEY! She needs help! That bothers me. I shoulda helped. OH well, I did give a little kid 3 quarters so he could buy a coke though. That was cool.
Lastly. Im extremely excited about this up-coming week. Its the seniors last week, and although ill miss a handful of them-After they leave I can declare myself a senior. So I want em to get the heck out. Anyways...Senior testing is this week. So ya,thats cool. Classes are all misconstrued. So thats really fun. Well, its time to go. Much love,later.