Need structure... and healthy people
Yep, this has been a friends only journal for a while now. The last post that wasn't friends talks a lot about my my disgust in having eaten ICE CREAM! Well, Now I am HAPPY to say that I am in recovery. I am gaining some beautiful insight.. it's been a month since i have had ana tendencies. It's AWESOME!!!
Recovery and learning to be "ok" with eating has been an emotional roller coaster. Yesterday was the first day, that I passed out cold. My body is still so confused. WOOT!! I have gained weight and MUSCLE is a beautiful thing! But I threw the scale into storage! I am looking GOOD! It's a beautiful feeling to look in the mirror and cry, because I am happy with how I look. BYE ANA!
So this is the post that I rather have people see when they look at my journal, instead of the sadness, and sick unhealthy thoughts i had in my last public post!
Recovery and learning to be "ok" with eating has been an emotional roller coaster. Yesterday was the first day, that I passed out cold. My body is still so confused. WOOT!! I have gained weight and MUSCLE is a beautiful thing! But I threw the scale into storage! I am looking GOOD! It's a beautiful feeling to look in the mirror and cry, because I am happy with how I look. BYE ANA!
So this is the post that I rather have people see when they look at my journal, instead of the sadness, and sick unhealthy thoughts i had in my last public post!