I want to live again, I want to start everything over again
So for those of you (two or so) reading this that haven't heard, like two weeks ago this girl I used to work with Samaris Tassinaro died in a car wreck. She was 19 years old, with a 5-month-old son.
I knew this girl. Not extremely well, but we had a speaking acquaintance. I had a crush on her for a while. In general, I liked her as a person. She was bright and classy. And now she's gone.
This isn't an "I wish I got to know her better". This is an "I wish it didn't happen". Arguably she's the closest person to me who has ever died, and she was 19 with an infant to boot. And I just can't stop thinking about it.
The whole thing is really doing a number on me. I mean, it's fucking with my head majorly. The thought that in an instant it's all gone...I don't know how to deal with it. I think about it every day, and this is someone I haven't spoken to in about 2 years.
I used to hate Armor for Sleep. I refused to listen to them. Then I would listen to "Car Underwater" because it was catchy, but still hated them. Now not only do I like them, I'm completely addicted to "What to Do When You Are Dead" because it's the only way I can deal with this. It's really got me out of it. Every word that he sings, I feel like that's what Samaris is thinking wherever she is.
"Make time slower/Give me longer"--Car Underwater
"I want to live again/I want to start everything over again"---Awkward Last Words
"Holding your head up is hard when you just want to stay on the ground"--Stay on the Ground
I knew this girl. Not extremely well, but we had a speaking acquaintance. I had a crush on her for a while. In general, I liked her as a person. She was bright and classy. And now she's gone.
This isn't an "I wish I got to know her better". This is an "I wish it didn't happen". Arguably she's the closest person to me who has ever died, and she was 19 with an infant to boot. And I just can't stop thinking about it.
The whole thing is really doing a number on me. I mean, it's fucking with my head majorly. The thought that in an instant it's all gone...I don't know how to deal with it. I think about it every day, and this is someone I haven't spoken to in about 2 years.
I used to hate Armor for Sleep. I refused to listen to them. Then I would listen to "Car Underwater" because it was catchy, but still hated them. Now not only do I like them, I'm completely addicted to "What to Do When You Are Dead" because it's the only way I can deal with this. It's really got me out of it. Every word that he sings, I feel like that's what Samaris is thinking wherever she is.
"Make time slower/Give me longer"--Car Underwater
"I want to live again/I want to start everything over again"---Awkward Last Words
"Holding your head up is hard when you just want to stay on the ground"--Stay on the Ground