failing
So, I've been working really hard. We're talking 12-16 hour days. I've gotten a ton done and really think this particular push is going to clean up so many of the issues we see. It's completely worth it.
Except.
Working through my scheduled baby feeding times has started lowering my milk production. And K has practically doubled her intake. We used to have over 2 weeks of backup meals. Now it's maybe 4 days. She's outpacing my original production, much less this new lower amount.
We broke down and bought formula last night, just in case. But to me it signals defeat. I've obviously chosen work over being able to care for her. B is great. He tells me there's more than one way to care for a baby, and being the person to keep a roof over her head is just as important as feeding her the healthiest possible option.
I just don't see it. She could live in a cheap apartment and still be getting full, healthy meals.
So I'm trying really hard to re-up production. I just don't know if it's working. Sure it's silly, but I just feel like they've thoroughly studied the long term benefits of breastmilk, unlike formula.
Anyway, it's the only thing not peachy keen right now in my corner of the world. So obviously, it's the only thing worth posting about.
Except.
Working through my scheduled baby feeding times has started lowering my milk production. And K has practically doubled her intake. We used to have over 2 weeks of backup meals. Now it's maybe 4 days. She's outpacing my original production, much less this new lower amount.
We broke down and bought formula last night, just in case. But to me it signals defeat. I've obviously chosen work over being able to care for her. B is great. He tells me there's more than one way to care for a baby, and being the person to keep a roof over her head is just as important as feeding her the healthiest possible option.
I just don't see it. She could live in a cheap apartment and still be getting full, healthy meals.
So I'm trying really hard to re-up production. I just don't know if it's working. Sure it's silly, but I just feel like they've thoroughly studied the long term benefits of breastmilk, unlike formula.
Anyway, it's the only thing not peachy keen right now in my corner of the world. So obviously, it's the only thing worth posting about.