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oh no I hit 9k comments somehow oh no I get an excuse for a meme
Conrad/Jaime/Sollux, ask me questions, I ask you questions, etc, I will probably pick at this over the next few days if SWTOR doesn't suck me in for good.
Conrad/Jaime/Sollux, ask me questions, I ask you questions, etc, I will probably pick at this over the next few days if SWTOR doesn't suck me in for good.
Jaime finds being emotionally linked with the scarab one of the most difficult parts of the whole experience. most times it's fine, but when he gets upset or angry, it can be like a feedback loop of negative emotion and it doesn't help that when the scarab is truly angry, it can be scary. they more or less understand each other, and it isn't as likely to suggest a lethal option (under most circumstances), but there is still that feeling of being on the edge of being able to do something terrible, and wanting that, just a little.
he's mostly learned to deal with the constant information overload, but some days are harder than others. some days he's a little too aware of everything around him and he can't stand to be in the cabin because being that close to all the magic Ronan has working is making his teeth itch.
he doesn't think about pain the way most people do anymore. when you can heal from almost anything and engaging your alien superpowers involves the armor tearing through muscle and skin, you gain another perspective. it's not that things don't hurt, but that he's come to think of it as temporary (in an immediate sense of the word). it only hurts until he can turn off his nerves or everything knits back together the way it should. it's always going to stop, and he can make himself stand it until it does.
he doesn't really remember what it's like for things to just be quiet anymore, or what it's like to be alone. the last time the scarab shut down for an extended period was over two years ago now and the little he remembers from november was just that it was weird and wrong. he tries not to think too hard about what that means.
and flying is pretty much the best superpower anyone can have, he's sure of it.
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