So, I was going strong on this meme, and suddenly stopped. Why? Because this part's actually pretty hard for me. Part of my life philosophy is to life without regrets. Make mistakes, but learn from them, and move forward. Too much precious time is lost having regrets- So it took a lot of thought to really try to figure out just what I was gonna put here.
Day 01: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day 02: Nine things about yourself.
Day 03: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day 04: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day 05: Six things you wish you’d never done.
1. I wish I hadn't done the homeschooling thing. Yeah, it seemed like a good idea at the time, but god damn did I miss on a lot of important social shit. And even the work I did... well, I'm smart enough to compensate, but let's say it was a setback.
2. I wish I hadn't rushed into things with my ex. I don't regret the time I spent with her, and I don't regret the relationship as a whole, even if it had problems, but I do regret rushing into it. I should have taken more time- made a stronger foundation.
3. Regarding the above, I wish I had been more assertive. I feel like I made too many personal compromises 'to make things work'. Lost too much of myself.
4. I wish I hadn't quit my job at Target. I hate the job and was legitimately fearful that the management was setting me up somehow, but I haven't had a decent job since. Bad timing on my part, bad decision all around.
5. I wish I didn't let my heart get ahead of my head. It's happened a few times now- Fall too hard, make an ass of myself, and in the end I've just lost friends over it. It's not worth that! Nothing's worth losing precious friendships. I'm resolved to do whatever I can not to let that happen again.
6. I wish I had been kinder in my youth. I may spend the rest of my life attempting to repent for the sins of an angry, confused child.
Day 06: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day 07: Four turn offs.
Day 08: Three turn ons.
Day 09: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day 10: One confession.