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Blah. When I go home I'm on a new job hunt, an apartment hunt, and a couple OTHER things I need to start looking for in my life. I mean I'm 19, I know I don't need a life plan and I don't want one. I just want a stable relationship, family and friends, someplace to call home, my music and health (which I don't have at the moment, hah). And I wish everyone else in my life the same. I'm not asking for perfection, just bare necessities and the bonus in the stable relationship. hah. That's all. Everything else, cars and all that crap, it's all material stuff. Materialism hit me so hard the last couple of days when I was cleaning out my papa's house. 90 years of living and he's got all this stuff. Memories and just stuff. You can't take any of it with you when you die, just leave behind the memories for your family and friends. I dunno I guess around such a materialistic time in the year it was a harsh slap of reality. I hate to say when I open presents this year that's all that will be in my mind, but unfortunately, I think it will. I don't need anything but the previously mentioned. Just family and friends, good health, some kind of home and music to enjoy. That's it. The rest won't make a difference when I'm gone.