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Part two:
Tonight was one of the best nights of my life.
"Oh to be young and in love"
Sometimes I use to wonder if what I was getting myself into would be worth it.
Would loving him this much be worth it, if in the end all I walked away with was a broken heart.
It ended for a couple weeks with me breaking up with him.
But only because I loved him so much.
Now, over a year and a half later I'm sure those feelings are mutual.
But even more than that, I know that if I were to lose him now I couldn't survive it.
And sometimes that scares me.
Not like, "What if he leaves me?!" type of scared.
But like, "What if something were to happen and he was taken from me forever?!"
The truth is that I would have to go with him.
Not because I'm scared to deal with the grief, or even the broken heart.
But rather because I cannot survive without him at this point.
He is the rock, the tiny thread that holds me together, my muse.
He's the one I think about, dream about, can see a future with.
And I truly can. I can see us sqautting in cali, and traveling the world,
And one day taking our kids to brooksby farm to go apple picking.
I can see a life long friendship, partnership, romance.
I can really see the love we share.
And while I was driving home tonight, I was suddenly so sure he feels the same.
That we cannot survive without one another.
And there was this overwhelming calm that was with me.
Like if suddenly a truck were to veer off into my lane and hit me head on,
That it would be ok.
Because I had tonight, and so did he.
And we'll be together, both of us, either way.
Here on earth or wherever we may go when we die.
Everything is going to be ok, because I had tonight.
And I'll have tomorrow.
And the next day.
And the rest of my life, and many lifetimes after that.
Love is truly timeless.
WE, are timeless.
We, are forever.
Tonight was one of the best nights of my life.
"Oh to be young and in love"
Sometimes I use to wonder if what I was getting myself into would be worth it.
Would loving him this much be worth it, if in the end all I walked away with was a broken heart.
It ended for a couple weeks with me breaking up with him.
But only because I loved him so much.
Now, over a year and a half later I'm sure those feelings are mutual.
But even more than that, I know that if I were to lose him now I couldn't survive it.
And sometimes that scares me.
Not like, "What if he leaves me?!" type of scared.
But like, "What if something were to happen and he was taken from me forever?!"
The truth is that I would have to go with him.
Not because I'm scared to deal with the grief, or even the broken heart.
But rather because I cannot survive without him at this point.
He is the rock, the tiny thread that holds me together, my muse.
He's the one I think about, dream about, can see a future with.
And I truly can. I can see us sqautting in cali, and traveling the world,
And one day taking our kids to brooksby farm to go apple picking.
I can see a life long friendship, partnership, romance.
I can really see the love we share.
And while I was driving home tonight, I was suddenly so sure he feels the same.
That we cannot survive without one another.
And there was this overwhelming calm that was with me.
Like if suddenly a truck were to veer off into my lane and hit me head on,
That it would be ok.
Because I had tonight, and so did he.
And we'll be together, both of us, either way.
Here on earth or wherever we may go when we die.
Everything is going to be ok, because I had tonight.
And I'll have tomorrow.
And the next day.
And the rest of my life, and many lifetimes after that.
Love is truly timeless.
WE, are timeless.
We, are forever.