hmmmm..Livejournal i guess....

[newbster6]

well hey everyone, this right here is my first joural i write. name is Nubia full salvaorean, go to southeast high, not single.hmmm ok lol. well its pretty damn early right now, got nothing to do besides wait for it to be time to go to school, moms its sleepin dont i dont wanna make lots of noise to wake her up. she works so much, and i feel bad at times because all i ever do is go to school, drill practice then work, and when i get home i just go to my room and just do homework or be online....it that bad? that i dont do much at home? well i mean i do whenver i got a chance,well u know how it goes with parents. My stepdad is kool his name is Jaime, hes pretty kick ass, except for when hew pissed, hes the biggest asshole. today is an even day at school, i didnt go yesterday, i was pretty damn sick, my back was hurtin for the past 3 dasy in a row, i got a retarded hip...well i u what happened is that.....OH WTF its to long to explain lol. well i was feelin kinda depressed yesterday and the nite b4, daniel(my boyfriend) and i been together for a year, i mean thats a pretty damn long ass time, i mean jeez, weve shared so much in many different ways, i love him with every single beat of my heart, and if u know me or know us u know how it is :) well anyways the point is that i left to california over the summer for 2 weeks, and when i came back i felt him a lil distant and less active about our relationship like he use too, i didnt notice this until later tho, when he mentioned somethings that struked me ( u learn thru this thing that i cant spell worth shit) well it came to the point where i felt SOOO MAD at myself for leavin, and stayin away from him for such a long time. but things kept wabbloin in my head that maybe as i was away he had been talkin to ppl and they were makin him see things differently, which totally upseted and came to bug me each freakin morning i woke up. he says its hard for him to be open with me.....o..k? why is that so hard, i mean c'mon we been together for a year, and im open, and i know that he was SOOOO OPEN with me when we started goin out. i dont know what changed in him, we talk about it and try to find a solution but it just seems like its hopeless, i never want to loose him but who knows whats gonna happen between us....

well today like i said its even day, i did my odd day homework, but i didnt due any even days one, SHIT im screwed and now im rememberin that there is this handouts for earth space science i didnt do SHIT! im fuked! oh well, ill copy them from melissa. well i may update this or maybe now, probably, im alwasy bored at home so i may, since im always on mysapce, well ok i know some of u think its gay, but WTF i got nothing to do when im home, i cant go out i aitn got my license yet.sooo whatever ill get it soon i hope but for the momemnt i gtg time for school bitches, cya