Good Grief
Looking back on earlier entries I realize the key to new entries is to write outside of here and then come here and paste it in. My earlier post I read in a text doc just to get the thoughts out of my head because they were so loud.
After I posted I glanced at earlier entries. Bloody hell. I keep starting to write and then get distracted by the despair and complete lack of focus of past entries. There's flipping almost 2 years missing!
And I'm not sure what happened....
And I was sober...
Sober, unemployed, severely depressed, and getting fat AF.
I guess one good thing about the manic chaos of business planning mode is that it gets me up. In multiple ways.
Better than not having any idea what the hell happened to 2 years...
Anyway. Not letting this make me sink. Holding on to the blind hope! I will prevail!