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hrmm. so much to say.
today was a great day so far, and it looks like its goin to get even better.
tim hortons english toffee. watching oc with boy. shopping! new dakine backpack. and adventures to giant tiger / taco tuesday.
he makes me so happy when im sad. :)
im done with getting treated like shit. you cant handel your liqor. your an alcholic and dont even say your not because you CANT STOP. your uncontrollable when your hammered and i dont enjoy being around you. and since your hammered all the time i dont think this friendship is going to work out. im sick of being a babysitter because thats how i feel.
and every night i dont hang out with you. you go make stupid descions . like really bad stupid descions and then it makes me feel like shit because i cant do anything but be around you without you fuckin shit up. and since you blacked out on me for no fucking reason, and wanted to kick my ass last night......I dont think I cant take this no longer. I get ignored for three fuckin months because you have a boyfriend and now that your boyfriend and you are over ...im the shoulder to cry upon. I was there for you ALL THIS time....and I have FORGIVEN you SO many fuckin times. I am just outta breath, I am sick of trying...I simply do not GIVE a flying fuck anymore. All these stuipid tears ARE not worth it. so many times you have tried to change and people have been there for you and help you time and time again and YOU STILL DONT FUCKIN CHANGE. NOTHING clicks apparently. So fuck this I am done. I feel like shit. I try to do the right thing and help you and you black out on me. So fuck it. I am sick of being a babysitter, mother, whatever. I m sick of looking after you when all I feel is like SHIT IN RETURN.
amen.