Fai was already tearing Kurogane apart without having to pull on anything. Kurogane didn't know it then, once again referring to the file with the big red letters of denile, but the pain that Fai caused him was caused by Fai alone. That barb was in his skin, and pulling it out would rip and sting, but that would eventually heal. The poision from that barb though had already reached his heart, and that's what would cause the wound to continue to hurt.
And of course Kurogane wouldn't believe him. Fai was a bundle of lies and then some. When Fai told him something, Kurogane could never fully believe what came out of his mouth. There was always a lie, hidden somewhere inside the twisted in the vines of what he told him. If Fai had given him a reason to believe him, perhaps Kurogane's wouldn't have had to resort to force to get Fai to eat.
"Yes. Together." Kurogane was expecting the icy words that shot straight through him this time, and didn't even flinch when they hit. "I didn't think you wanted too, though you don't have much of a choice. Even if you don't live with me you will be forced to interact with me in some point." Kurogane glanced at him, knowing he was being brutally honest and knowing that Fai would understand what he really meant.
Fai might be a bundle of lies, but that then mean that everything was like the little boy who cried wolf. Besides, avoiding the truth was no nessacarily lying, now was it? It was okay to tell a white lie here and there. He did it for their protection anyway. Kurogane should be grateful that all he got was lies and half-truths.
"The only way I will be forced to interact with you is if you yourself force me to interact." Fai said bitterly, not even bothering to sugar coat his words. "If I had my way that only time I would be interacting with you is when I'm dead." He turned away from the ninja, hoping that he would just give up on his useful hope of keeping him alive. He wouldn't share a place with Kurogane even if it was the only place he could stay. Things were just too complicated now for that.
Kurogane growled at him, though restrained himself from attacking Fai. "Then I will." He vowed. "And I'm going to need to know where you live." He didn't care if that made him sound like a stalker, because he would come to Fai and make him interact. It wasn't a challenge from Fai, but Kurogane would take it as one.
"And if I find out you don't have a place to live, I'll tie you down to one of the beds and make you room with me." This was a threat and it was one Fai better not take lightly. Kurogane rarely gave a threat that he did not intend to fill out (anymore anyway. Back when he had first met the annoying mage he might have said differently).
"Its my life. Shouldn't I get a say about it?" Fai hissed, stopping short. He was getting sick and tired of Kurogane forcing himself into his life. At one time he did want him to be there, but now he wasn't so sure. Forcing someone to live against their will really wasn't the proper way to go about courting them. At least, not in any world that he knew of.
"Who says that I'm going to give you my address? Who's to say that I even plan on stay here?" He pointed out. He didn't care how many threats Kurogane made. It wasn't like he would go through with any that involved him. At least, that was how it seemed to be for their journey thus far.
Kurogane stopped with him, looking annoyed. Did Fai really think so selfishly? Not that Kurogane was any better. Fai needed to understand that whatever his excuse was for wanting to die was probably not as horrible as he made it out to be.
Fai also needed to understand that if he died, he would hurt a lot of people. Kurogane did not know, but he had a feeling that Fai was doing it because he didn't want anyone hurt. He didn't understand why, since Fai would not tell him, and yet he still chose to not care. Whatever it was, Fai would have to get over it, because him dying would hurt more than what ever he was hiding. Kurogane was sure of that.
"You're an idiot." Kurogane said bluntly. "And a wannabe martyr." He added.
What Kurogane didn't know was that what had happened to Fai was just as horrible as he had made it out to be. For someone so young to have gone through. The permanent scars that it left were something that would at times keep him up late into the night as he relived the horrible memories of his childhood.
Also, if he were to die, the pain of his death would be nothing compared to what could happen if he remained alive. That and Kurogane had no idea of what he had been through. That was his fault though. Maybe he should tell the ninja his past and get it over with.
"You have nothing to base that off of." Fai hissed, glaring at Kurogane. "You don't know what I've been through."
"You won't tell me so I won't know." Kurogane answered, glaring at him. "Therefore, I will make assumptions. And if it's not important enough for you to tell me, I don't care."
Kurogane had never cared about Fai's past. It didn't do a thing to change Fai or how he felt. He didn't need to know any of it. In fact he didn't want to know all of it. The only thing he really wanted was for Fai to forgive him.
"Maybe I'm not telling you to protect you and the children." Fai said coldly, refusing to look at Kurogane. He was beginning to feel cornered by the other man. "That still doesn't give you the right to forced me to do things against my will."
It was going to be hard for Fai to forgive him anyway. It didn't matter if he didn't care about his past. It was his actions that had caused this rift, not his beliefs. If Kurogane wanted Fai's forgiveness, his best bet would be to get down on his knees and start begging (figuratively speaking).
Kurogane would have gotten on his hands and knees if it weren't for his pride. He simply would have to find another means which wouldn't damage his pride. (If he weren't so hurt by rejection he would try sweeping the blond off his feet, but he just knew that wouldn't end well for him).
"I have too. I'm not letting you die." He grabbed Fai's chin and made him look up at him, glaring at him though not as intensely as he would have liked. "I'm not letting you give up."
"All of you would be better off without me." Fai said, looking up at Kurogane with just the same amount intensity. He moved to pull away from him, hating the fact that he felt like a cornered animal. Kurogane had gotten too close to him now. His scent was completely enveloping him.
"I gave up on living a long time ago." He said, pushing away from the ninja. He was beginning to struggling to keep full control over himself.
Kurogane noticed it, if not right away, the hunger that Fai was never completely able to hide. The almost predator like look in his eye giving him away. And that was what Fai was, a predator now, confined to a single prey instead of having his pick.
Kurogane grabbed Fai's arm, keeping him from running away. He wasn't going to give up on the ground he had recently advanced on. Not yet. "Why? Why would we be better off without you?" He asked, staring down at him and wondering just how long Fai would be able to take a confrontation.
He was like a wild animal, frightened and cornered, and if Kurogane kept advancing he would eventually lash out in defense. "I already told you once, I would kill you." Personally Kurogane wanted Fai to lash out. At least then Fai would be fighting for something.
Being a predator couldn't be made to look any better to Fai. Even though his only prey was Kurogane, it still made him feel dirty every time he was forced to feed. Being turned into a vampire may have been something easy for the ninja to deal with, but the mage was having trouble cooping. Taking a life wasn't something he enjoyed doing and the fear of drinking too much of Kurogane's blood was always lingering in the back of his mind.
He fought against Kurogane. He was too close. He was too hungry. "Let me go." He hissed, fighting to keep his voice level. He couldn't look into Kurogane's eyes anymore, hating the fact that they reminded him of blood. He hated himself even more when his eye ended up on his neck, almost as if he was watching his pulse there. "You're also better off not knowing."
He was starting to shake as his will began to crumble. He didn't want to let the vampiric side take over and have its way with Kurogane. He didn't want to see Kurogane laying on the ground drained of his life because of him. "Then kill me!" Fai cried, bordering on hysterics. It wouldn't be long before he did lash out at this point.
Kurogane would never understand how Fai felt about being a vampire, considering he wasn't one and the fact that Fai would never open up to him. He could guess, but he would never really know, and he didn't really care. He only cared about that Fai was alive and that he fed. It never occurred to him that Fai would need any type of reassurance. He didn't think Fai needed it. The blond should know that whatever Fai threw at him he could handle.
"Then I don't care." Kurogane replied, reaching for Fai's other arm with his own hand, gripping the wrist a bit tightly. He had noticed Fai eying his neck, and found that he wanted Fai to loose control. At least then he would be feeding and Kurogane wouldn't have to force him. Though, it would be a risk to keep this up, unsure if he would be able to stop the vampire if the vampire happened to be unable to stop himself.
"I'm not going to kill you." Kurogane growled out,leaning a bit closer to try and catch Fai's eye and hold it. "I don't want to."
The problem was that somewhere in the back of his mind Fai was aware that Kurogane couldn't handle anything he threw at him, even if the ninja thought otherwise.
"Kurogane, let me go!." Fai said, fighting a bit harder against him. Fear was starting to eat away at him as his last small amount of control slipped away from him. Now instead of fighting to get away, he was fighting to get to his prey. He wanted to feed so desperately at this point.
"You said that you would kill me if I wanted to die." He muttered before lunging for his neck.
Kurogane noticed the fear, a bit too late, wondering what Fai could possibly be afraid of. Kurogane wasn't going to hurt him unless Fai forced him too, and even then he would be reluctant. He contemplated loosening his grip anyway.
And Kurogane was surprised he had nothing to say to Fai, and was trying to think things over when he noticed the look in his eye. It wasn't fear anymore, it was attack. Kurogane barely had enough time to brace himself before Fai lunged, Kurogane himself being careful to keep a grip on Fai just in case he needed to pull him away.
Fai wanted to cry as he sunk his fangs into Kurogane's neck. He had never fed from there before since Kurogane usually forced him to feed from his wrist. He had also never gotten to the point where he lost control of himself.
He drank deeply, desperate for the nourishment that he had been denying his body. He felt Kurogane's grip on his arms and he had never been more grateful for that. Although, it wasn't enough to quell his fear of killing the other man.
And of course Kurogane wouldn't believe him. Fai was a bundle of lies and then some. When Fai told him something, Kurogane could never fully believe what came out of his mouth. There was always a lie, hidden somewhere inside the twisted in the vines of what he told him. If Fai had given him a reason to believe him, perhaps Kurogane's wouldn't have had to resort to force to get Fai to eat.
"Yes. Together." Kurogane was expecting the icy words that shot straight through him this time, and didn't even flinch when they hit. "I didn't think you wanted too, though you don't have much of a choice. Even if you don't live with me you will be forced to interact with me in some point." Kurogane glanced at him, knowing he was being brutally honest and knowing that Fai would understand what he really meant.
Kurogane would not let him die.
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"The only way I will be forced to interact with you is if you yourself force me to interact." Fai said bitterly, not even bothering to sugar coat his words. "If I had my way that only time I would be interacting with you is when I'm dead." He turned away from the ninja, hoping that he would just give up on his useful hope of keeping him alive. He wouldn't share a place with Kurogane even if it was the only place he could stay. Things were just too complicated now for that.
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"And if I find out you don't have a place to live, I'll tie you down to one of the beds and make you room with me." This was a threat and it was one Fai better not take lightly. Kurogane rarely gave a threat that he did not intend to fill out (anymore anyway. Back when he had first met the annoying mage he might have said differently).
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"Who says that I'm going to give you my address? Who's to say that I even plan on stay here?" He pointed out. He didn't care how many threats Kurogane made. It wasn't like he would go through with any that involved him. At least, that was how it seemed to be for their journey thus far.
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Fai also needed to understand that if he died, he would hurt a lot of people. Kurogane did not know, but he had a feeling that Fai was doing it because he didn't want anyone hurt. He didn't understand why, since Fai would not tell him, and yet he still chose to not care. Whatever it was, Fai would have to get over it, because him dying would hurt more than what ever he was hiding. Kurogane was sure of that.
"You're an idiot." Kurogane said bluntly. "And a wannabe martyr." He added.
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Also, if he were to die, the pain of his death would be nothing compared to what could happen if he remained alive. That and Kurogane had no idea of what he had been through. That was his fault though. Maybe he should tell the ninja his past and get it over with.
"You have nothing to base that off of." Fai hissed, glaring at Kurogane. "You don't know what I've been through."
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Kurogane had never cared about Fai's past. It didn't do a thing to change Fai or how he felt. He didn't need to know any of it. In fact he didn't want to know all of it. The only thing he really wanted was for Fai to forgive him.
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It was going to be hard for Fai to forgive him anyway. It didn't matter if he didn't care about his past. It was his actions that had caused this rift, not his beliefs. If Kurogane wanted Fai's forgiveness, his best bet would be to get down on his knees and start begging (figuratively speaking).
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"I have too. I'm not letting you die." He grabbed Fai's chin and made him look up at him, glaring at him though not as intensely as he would have liked. "I'm not letting you give up."
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"I gave up on living a long time ago." He said, pushing away from the ninja. He was beginning to struggling to keep full control over himself.
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Kurogane grabbed Fai's arm, keeping him from running away. He wasn't going to give up on the ground he had recently advanced on. Not yet. "Why? Why would we be better off without you?" He asked, staring down at him and wondering just how long Fai would be able to take a confrontation.
He was like a wild animal, frightened and cornered, and if Kurogane kept advancing he would eventually lash out in defense. "I already told you once, I would kill you." Personally Kurogane wanted Fai to lash out. At least then Fai would be fighting for something.
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He fought against Kurogane. He was too close. He was too hungry. "Let me go." He hissed, fighting to keep his voice level. He couldn't look into Kurogane's eyes anymore, hating the fact that they reminded him of blood. He hated himself even more when his eye ended up on his neck, almost as if he was watching his pulse there. "You're also better off not knowing."
He was starting to shake as his will began to crumble. He didn't want to let the vampiric side take over and have its way with Kurogane. He didn't want to see Kurogane laying on the ground drained of his life because of him. "Then kill me!" Fai cried, bordering on hysterics. It wouldn't be long before he did lash out at this point.
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"Then I don't care." Kurogane replied, reaching for Fai's other arm with his own hand, gripping the wrist a bit tightly. He had noticed Fai eying his neck, and found that he wanted Fai to loose control. At least then he would be feeding and Kurogane wouldn't have to force him. Though, it would be a risk to keep this up, unsure if he would be able to stop the vampire if the vampire happened to be unable to stop himself.
"I'm not going to kill you." Kurogane growled out,leaning a bit closer to try and catch Fai's eye and hold it. "I don't want to."
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"Kurogane, let me go!." Fai said, fighting a bit harder against him. Fear was starting to eat away at him as his last small amount of control slipped away from him. Now instead of fighting to get away, he was fighting to get to his prey. He wanted to feed so desperately at this point.
"You said that you would kill me if I wanted to die." He muttered before lunging for his neck.
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And Kurogane was surprised he had nothing to say to Fai, and was trying to think things over when he noticed the look in his eye. It wasn't fear anymore, it was attack. Kurogane barely had enough time to brace himself before Fai lunged, Kurogane himself being careful to keep a grip on Fai just in case he needed to pull him away.
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He drank deeply, desperate for the nourishment that he had been denying his body. He felt Kurogane's grip on his arms and he had never been more grateful for that. Although, it wasn't enough to quell his fear of killing the other man.
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