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The past week the moon has passed through her first quarter, from new to half-new, and I've had such a good week. You can't keep up this kind of flow for very long periods, but by god it's good when you've got it.
I'm FREE. I can do the things I want to do, make my own choices. On a good day I can actually handle the pressure and the stress. It's really weird for me to feel this good on the verge of November. For fifteen years or so I hated November. I had winter depressions. But, true to the textbook description, I've reached the age where those have eased up. Thank you! There are advantages to gathering more birthdays. *s*
Talked to my good friend today, at the Brahms rehearsal. She's so cute. I've always had kind of a thing for her. I was bragging about how I can sing longer phrases now since I became addicted to working out. Better lung capacity. She looked at me intensely and told me she can SEE the difference, I have a new energy, a new light in my eyes. Oh, I'd love to take her away from all this. *big smile* God, I hope she doesn't read this. *embarrassed* (But there's no way she would.)
I'm staying up late tonight because I gave myself permission. Today will be a great day if everything goes according to plan. Sleep late, brunch, workout, rehearsal and then the big event: Brahms' Requiem. It looks like it could be a wonderful performance. And after that, PARTYYYYYY. Wohooo!
Tomorrow the moon turns from first to second quarter. It seems right to have a big party on the turning night. *s*
I'm FREE. I can do the things I want to do, make my own choices. On a good day I can actually handle the pressure and the stress. It's really weird for me to feel this good on the verge of November. For fifteen years or so I hated November. I had winter depressions. But, true to the textbook description, I've reached the age where those have eased up. Thank you! There are advantages to gathering more birthdays. *s*
Talked to my good friend today, at the Brahms rehearsal. She's so cute. I've always had kind of a thing for her. I was bragging about how I can sing longer phrases now since I became addicted to working out. Better lung capacity. She looked at me intensely and told me she can SEE the difference, I have a new energy, a new light in my eyes. Oh, I'd love to take her away from all this. *big smile* God, I hope she doesn't read this. *embarrassed* (But there's no way she would.)
I'm staying up late tonight because I gave myself permission. Today will be a great day if everything goes according to plan. Sleep late, brunch, workout, rehearsal and then the big event: Brahms' Requiem. It looks like it could be a wonderful performance. And after that, PARTYYYYYY. Wohooo!
Tomorrow the moon turns from first to second quarter. It seems right to have a big party on the turning night. *s*