Chickenbabies and wolfmen!

[new_jewelsy]

Work has been crazy, all I can say is what is in the title of this entry...wow. Anyways, I can't believe the first week of class is pretty much over. I got into the class I needed, and I'm really loving it. I never knew the Old Testament could be so compelling, and I'm glad I know quite a few people in it, and in my Scandinavian Mythology class...Lately I've been feeling a little bit lonely, with Kim so busy with Matt, Kelly Castaneda with her old man (literally), but luckily I've "rekindled" my friendship with KP. I really feel that she has grown up in the past year, and we get into crazy fun together...too much sometimes. I'm pretty disappointed with myself for my behavior at the bar the other night. It was really fun, but looking back on it, I just don't think God would be lovin' it. It was nice to meet so many guys, but then I think I would never want to date someone who I met when I had been drinking like that. I don't want to be like that, and I don't want people to think I'm like that all the time. Lately I've just been introspective, and I want to find something about myself that makes me stand out, or be special, or some reason that I deserve friendships that I have. I don't want to be a poser, but I don't really know who I truly am sometimes. What comes out of me in times of trial and pressure? Who do people see me as, and do I want to change that? Do people even notice me, the real me?

"Sometimes you don't know how to fit in until you find a way to break out." -"Girl Interrupted"

I can't believe how judgemental I can be sometimes. I can't believe that I didn't like Charisse for any apparent reason and then she went out of her way to do that for me. God shows me things in such obvious ways sometimes...