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[new_found_punk]

Had a bit of a "big" moment the other night, so other way to really explain it. I always pretend that i'm so over you because i know i should be, not that there was anything to even be over but i lusted after you for so long; but even now i know that one kiss from you would bring it all back. The other night when you asked me to come over i was on the verge of coming, then even when i got home i was on the verge of phoning a taxi and coming back out. that's madness surely? the only thing that stopped me was knowing that your parents were definetly in despite your drunken logic that they wouldn't be. and even if all you had really wanted to do was listen to some good tunes and read Q magazine; that would have been enough because i would have been with you and it would have been fine.

i don't even know why i'm back to even trying to persuing you; probably because it's the christmas holidays and it's lonely..sorta.this whole thing is ridiculous. i can't even bring myself to delete the messages and i don't know why. get a grip get a grip get a grip.