Blow up the oustide.
My mom thinks I'm depressed, and she's going to get an appointment for me with ther doctor, thought I doubt it'll happen.
School is crap.
I'm losing my mind in Team Sports, Physics, German, and the time between.
Team Sports we just sit there because the construction people have taken over the gym and locker rooms. We just sit there. And I slowly go crazy because I need to be doing something.
I didn't used to be like that.
German is so tedious and monotonous I don't care anymore, and I doubt I'll take it next year.
Physics is the same crap.
Calculus is odd.
Troy pays more attention to me than I know.
Savage is paying less.
He was limping and had a cough Wednesday...
The reason I talk about school is because it's all I do.
I need to get a job, somewhere close to where I live, somewhere in Bell Tower or sommat would be nice.
---
He has his grip on me, and is pulling harder.
Slowly, softly, but ever there.
Slip of a dream; a mirage, and I see him.
He's left me again, only to come back.
Phantasms taunt me, on the end of my fingers.
Always moving forward, we can never stop.
Always running on, mirrors and smoke mislead.
A blur of confusion and I'm asleep.
With him 'till I wake.
---
A call to arms,
the brace for speed.
A foot out the door,
the mind paid no heed.
Questions asked, and memories lost.
The Man forgets what time had taught.
The dawn is back to take its tithe.
Whether right or wrong, he must give.
The house is open, the doors are locked.
The Man loses more, with life he fought.
Walking the streets,
his mind is in shambles.
In a nearby room,
trembles the light of a candle.
Sitting in a shallow, waiting for a cause.
The birds are singing, a woman has paused.
She looks into his eyes, he looks into her heart.
And once again, they were never to part.
Years gone by, leaves gone dry.
A spark will still catch, and burn on by.
Smiles of knowing, laughs of love.
Together they gazed at the stars above.
They lay on the grass.
And let the time pass.
“Once again, ourselves we have found.
Take my hand, and let us be bound.”
She takes his hand, and walks with him.
The light up ahead is ever so dim.
Together forever,
‘Till death do them part.
The end is unseen,
Like birds in the dark.
---
Those aren't recent.
The Man one was sometime when we were preparing writing assigments for the english competitions...
I ended up entering a marching memoir and the Wood poem. =/
Fellerman said it expressed strong emotion...
gah
I hate that I'm caring less and less.
I got a new ink cartridge for my typewriter and wrote up a few lab reports.
Einhundert.
Unendlichkeit = Infinity
Zwitter = Hermaphrodite
Oh, the things you learn paging through a german dictionary when you're supposed to be translating Rotkaeppchen.
The whole Launch.yahoo.com thing was great while it lasted for the 16 days.
x| I used up my 800 song limit.
But, in that time, heard great things from Mazzy Star, Stone Gossard, Brad, Nina Nastasia, Midnight Movies, Gomez, and other bands that I must check out.
Thanksgiving was yesterday and we went to Aunt Beth's.
A highlight was when mom told me Terri was pregnant.
We all thought Todd shot blanks...
third times a charm ;)...
Sore throat for the past couple of days. Two-fold Quizzes in calc for the past week.
Karen is as distant as she was in those first few days of german sophomore year.
Kendra is as preoccupied as she's been for the past four-five years.
I don't think I have any other friends.
Jordan is transferring to Mariner, Stephanie is out there, Sam is out there in an entirely different direction, --
I had a dream about Jon, and when I woke up I was crying.
Frank said that Ryan was transferring to UF.. I've been getting a lot of mail from them.
Frank hasn't been online since the homecoming game, and I miss them all so much.
It'll never be the same.
Ryan had long hair, and I hope he doesn't cut it. I never knew it was so dark.
I just realized something..
Frank had a camera, as always, but he didn't get a picture of me for a change.
Wow.
Yea. I spent that night crying, and hugging Darbie.
She hasn't talked to me since for no reason that I can see. Not that she talked to me much before......
Ah, poo.
School is crap.
I'm losing my mind in Team Sports, Physics, German, and the time between.
Team Sports we just sit there because the construction people have taken over the gym and locker rooms. We just sit there. And I slowly go crazy because I need to be doing something.
I didn't used to be like that.
German is so tedious and monotonous I don't care anymore, and I doubt I'll take it next year.
Physics is the same crap.
Calculus is odd.
Troy pays more attention to me than I know.
Savage is paying less.
He was limping and had a cough Wednesday...
The reason I talk about school is because it's all I do.
I need to get a job, somewhere close to where I live, somewhere in Bell Tower or sommat would be nice.
---
He has his grip on me, and is pulling harder.
Slowly, softly, but ever there.
Slip of a dream; a mirage, and I see him.
He's left me again, only to come back.
Phantasms taunt me, on the end of my fingers.
Always moving forward, we can never stop.
Always running on, mirrors and smoke mislead.
A blur of confusion and I'm asleep.
With him 'till I wake.
---
A call to arms,
the brace for speed.
A foot out the door,
the mind paid no heed.
Questions asked, and memories lost.
The Man forgets what time had taught.
The dawn is back to take its tithe.
Whether right or wrong, he must give.
The house is open, the doors are locked.
The Man loses more, with life he fought.
Walking the streets,
his mind is in shambles.
In a nearby room,
trembles the light of a candle.
Sitting in a shallow, waiting for a cause.
The birds are singing, a woman has paused.
She looks into his eyes, he looks into her heart.
And once again, they were never to part.
Years gone by, leaves gone dry.
A spark will still catch, and burn on by.
Smiles of knowing, laughs of love.
Together they gazed at the stars above.
They lay on the grass.
And let the time pass.
“Once again, ourselves we have found.
Take my hand, and let us be bound.”
She takes his hand, and walks with him.
The light up ahead is ever so dim.
Together forever,
‘Till death do them part.
The end is unseen,
Like birds in the dark.
---
Those aren't recent.
The Man one was sometime when we were preparing writing assigments for the english competitions...
I ended up entering a marching memoir and the Wood poem. =/
Fellerman said it expressed strong emotion...
gah
I hate that I'm caring less and less.
I got a new ink cartridge for my typewriter and wrote up a few lab reports.
Einhundert.
Unendlichkeit = Infinity
Zwitter = Hermaphrodite
Oh, the things you learn paging through a german dictionary when you're supposed to be translating Rotkaeppchen.
The whole Launch.yahoo.com thing was great while it lasted for the 16 days.
x| I used up my 800 song limit.
But, in that time, heard great things from Mazzy Star, Stone Gossard, Brad, Nina Nastasia, Midnight Movies, Gomez, and other bands that I must check out.
Thanksgiving was yesterday and we went to Aunt Beth's.
A highlight was when mom told me Terri was pregnant.
We all thought Todd shot blanks...
third times a charm ;)...
Sore throat for the past couple of days. Two-fold Quizzes in calc for the past week.
Karen is as distant as she was in those first few days of german sophomore year.
Kendra is as preoccupied as she's been for the past four-five years.
I don't think I have any other friends.
Jordan is transferring to Mariner, Stephanie is out there, Sam is out there in an entirely different direction, --
I had a dream about Jon, and when I woke up I was crying.
Frank said that Ryan was transferring to UF.. I've been getting a lot of mail from them.
Frank hasn't been online since the homecoming game, and I miss them all so much.
It'll never be the same.
Ryan had long hair, and I hope he doesn't cut it. I never knew it was so dark.
I just realized something..
Frank had a camera, as always, but he didn't get a picture of me for a change.
Wow.
Yea. I spent that night crying, and hugging Darbie.
She hasn't talked to me since for no reason that I can see. Not that she talked to me much before......
Ah, poo.