Filtered to Davis, but then privated
So people who date are supposed to talk to each other about their 'feelings' or whatever, right? So... I have feelings sometimes. Mostly about my family.
You asked if I was going hunting to prove something to my dad and I said maybe. It's not really so much maybe as it's... a lot. I just want him to look at me and smile, you know? I want someone to mention my name and for dad to sound proud when he tells them I'm his daughter and not sound like he's instead just completely ashamed that I am.
I know that I've failed him because I'm not like mum was. I know I'll never be half as amazing and strong as she was. She knew how to be tough and she knew how to do what was important and not complain about it and I thought that by going up there maybe I could just prove that I was maybe as good as she was.
My brothers think of me the same. They think of me as nothing but bait still. Matt yelled at me today, told me how stupid I was, told me I couldn't do any of this shit.
I just want to be good. All I want is to be someone who they'd be proud to be related to instead of... this, whatever I am, this fuck up.
You asked if I was going hunting to prove something to my dad and I said maybe. It's not really so much maybe as it's... a lot. I just want him to look at me and smile, you know? I want someone to mention my name and for dad to sound proud when he tells them I'm his daughter and not sound like he's instead just completely ashamed that I am.
I know that I've failed him because I'm not like mum was. I know I'll never be half as amazing and strong as she was. She knew how to be tough and she knew how to do what was important and not complain about it and I thought that by going up there maybe I could just prove that I was maybe as good as she was.
My brothers think of me the same. They think of me as nothing but bait still. Matt yelled at me today, told me how stupid I was, told me I couldn't do any of this shit.
I just want to be good. All I want is to be someone who they'd be proud to be related to instead of... this, whatever I am, this fuck up.