one step forward & two steps back
you mean a lot to me.
there, i said it. after all this time, after all these months.
"i do want you to know, i hold you up above everyone. i do want you to know, i think you'd be good to me and i'd be so good to you."
i don't know why i'm thinking about you now. it's the smallest things that bring me back to you: seeing a photograph with your arm draped around my shoulders, remembering all the words you said in the middle of the night before you had a chance to regret them. i forget about you sometimes, because it was never promising with us. it was different and special, but there was never really the hope of a future. i really hope that what you've done now is what you want. i hope you're happy, and i wish you the very best. i don't know how it feels to have that crazy rollercoaster love that you seem to have found; i don't know all of your past that's gotten you to this point; i don't know what will happen this time and where you'll end up. there's a lot about you that i still don't even know. but i do know that you deserve better. you deserve the best. i hope that's what you have now.