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Its funny how things can stay the
same. Or drastically change.
Somethings seem so close on some days but
so far away. I just don't know the right things to do.
woah ohh the theme of tonight: utter confusion.
I swear I'd break myself just to know whats going on. I mean I suddenly
don't want to do track. I mean go back to the one thing that tormented
me? I have no clue. I mean I hear my dad telling me that the coach
wants me to play and I'd be starting and everyone around me is so
suprised I quit..... I know with him there would be no bullshit. And
with that I leave the fact of what my heart wants. I just am so split.
I love the game. But running has been my outlet. I have worked for
years to get where I am. I dont know if I just want to blow it all off
for track, which I am definity not as talented in. I mean yeah I love
the people I run with to death, It just seems like this year its so
much different then before I dont know how to explain it. But it can't
match the excitement of a basketball game. A game winning shot, 2pts
down. Its still in me but I don't know if I'm ready to give up running.
Its just so ffed up.
Oh yeah I need a date to winterball fools. haha fat chance I dont even know if I want to go to that anyways.
woooie.
gulp. helpppppppp.
Just a calendar day (ba ba ba ba)
Its funny how things can stay the same
Or drastically change
Some things seem so close on some days but still so far away
Dont know the right things to do (ba ba ba ba)
In fact I dont have a clue sometimes I feel like a tool
And I want to be truthfully true to you
And do all the things that you do
But when I hate everything about the mean things that i say
It feels like I mess up so much and I can only say
"I hate everything about my ways"
But you tell me im OK
And one day one day i know you'll say
"B im so glad you made it"
"oh well Jesus thank you so much for saying that"
because the truth you know is that i have just been hating so many things i do
but now I realize forever that you're my friend
no matter what you will never leave me to fend
I don't know much but I know we will be
As happy as a 195o's TV family
Except times infinity
Two calendar days (ba ba ba ba)
And still my life is the same
And other people's have changed
I wonder what if Im too late
All the time that I said I would just wait?
And yeah does anyone care
About us here or anywhere?
Well I just want to try and dare
To be there, to care cus i know- i know thats rare
but when i hate everything about the mean things that i say
It feels like i mess up so much and i can only say
"I hate everything about my ways"
But you tell me I'm OK
And one day one day i know you'll say
"B Im so glad you made it"
"oh well Jesus thank you so much for saying that"
because the truth you know is that I have just been hating so many things I do
but now I realize forever that you're my friend
no matter what you will never leave me to fend
I don't know much but i know we will be
as happy as a 1950's TV family
except times infinity
a family that I will be in
a family- its jsut not pretend
a familt that I will be in, a family
I don't know much but I know we will be
happy as a 1950"s TV family..
except times infinity
just a calendar day.
same. Or drastically change.
Somethings seem so close on some days but
so far away. I just don't know the right things to do.
woah ohh the theme of tonight: utter confusion.
I swear I'd break myself just to know whats going on. I mean I suddenly
don't want to do track. I mean go back to the one thing that tormented
me? I have no clue. I mean I hear my dad telling me that the coach
wants me to play and I'd be starting and everyone around me is so
suprised I quit..... I know with him there would be no bullshit. And
with that I leave the fact of what my heart wants. I just am so split.
I love the game. But running has been my outlet. I have worked for
years to get where I am. I dont know if I just want to blow it all off
for track, which I am definity not as talented in. I mean yeah I love
the people I run with to death, It just seems like this year its so
much different then before I dont know how to explain it. But it can't
match the excitement of a basketball game. A game winning shot, 2pts
down. Its still in me but I don't know if I'm ready to give up running.
Its just so ffed up.
Oh yeah I need a date to winterball fools. haha fat chance I dont even know if I want to go to that anyways.
woooie.
gulp. helpppppppp.
Just a calendar day (ba ba ba ba)
Its funny how things can stay the same
Or drastically change
Some things seem so close on some days but still so far away
Dont know the right things to do (ba ba ba ba)
In fact I dont have a clue sometimes I feel like a tool
And I want to be truthfully true to you
And do all the things that you do
But when I hate everything about the mean things that i say
It feels like I mess up so much and I can only say
"I hate everything about my ways"
But you tell me im OK
And one day one day i know you'll say
"B im so glad you made it"
"oh well Jesus thank you so much for saying that"
because the truth you know is that i have just been hating so many things i do
but now I realize forever that you're my friend
no matter what you will never leave me to fend
I don't know much but I know we will be
As happy as a 195o's TV family
Except times infinity
Two calendar days (ba ba ba ba)
And still my life is the same
And other people's have changed
I wonder what if Im too late
All the time that I said I would just wait?
And yeah does anyone care
About us here or anywhere?
Well I just want to try and dare
To be there, to care cus i know- i know thats rare
but when i hate everything about the mean things that i say
It feels like i mess up so much and i can only say
"I hate everything about my ways"
But you tell me I'm OK
And one day one day i know you'll say
"B Im so glad you made it"
"oh well Jesus thank you so much for saying that"
because the truth you know is that I have just been hating so many things I do
but now I realize forever that you're my friend
no matter what you will never leave me to fend
I don't know much but i know we will be
as happy as a 1950's TV family
except times infinity
a family that I will be in
a family- its jsut not pretend
a familt that I will be in, a family
I don't know much but I know we will be
happy as a 1950"s TV family..
except times infinity
just a calendar day.