This is my life...
So another weekend of fun and joy. Another weekend of relaxing and having a good time. I thought everything was great. Then today I found out a friend of mine was upset at me. I do not know why and she did not explain. All I know is this has me all confused. I can not think or anything to have caused this. All I know is I can only hope this all just works itself out. There is nothing else I can think of to do other then sit and be myself. She says that my "nice guy" thing is an act. this confuses me to no end. How is it possible that she could think that. What could I have possibly done to make her think that. Hell the whole weekend I did not even see her except for in passing here and there.
I mean I am happy that she did speak to me at least on AIM and told me her feelings. At least then she is not putting up a false front. It also lets me know to a degree what she is thinking. This is all I could ask of my friends. Now I just have to figure out how to attempt to change that thought, or hell even how. This is yet another bit of confussion in my life.
I thought fire school and work was taking a toll on me. Yet another thing to add to my plate. I told her I was concerned because I cared about her. She told me it would make her happier if I would stop caring about her. How can I do that. I wont do that. For about a year she was the only one I felt I could tell anything. I felt that she was one of the few people that I could tell anything. For a little while there I thought she could do the same. And now I’m faced with her telling me not to care. Faced with the loss of what I considered a good friend.
What is next in my life......
I mean I am happy that she did speak to me at least on AIM and told me her feelings. At least then she is not putting up a false front. It also lets me know to a degree what she is thinking. This is all I could ask of my friends. Now I just have to figure out how to attempt to change that thought, or hell even how. This is yet another bit of confussion in my life.
I thought fire school and work was taking a toll on me. Yet another thing to add to my plate. I told her I was concerned because I cared about her. She told me it would make her happier if I would stop caring about her. How can I do that. I wont do that. For about a year she was the only one I felt I could tell anything. I felt that she was one of the few people that I could tell anything. For a little while there I thought she could do the same. And now I’m faced with her telling me not to care. Faced with the loss of what I considered a good friend.
What is next in my life......