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So I think I have a chemical imbalance or something. Lately I've just been so damn depressed about life in general. Sometimes I feel like my whole world is crashing around me. I hate that feeling. I'm really scared to talk to someone about it. I've already been down that road. Some shrink has already diagnosed me as being bipolar, but I really don't know. I thought that I overcame that. One little thing used to screw up my whole week, and then I started taking it day by day. I thought about it, and realized every day is a new day. I guess its still like that in a way, but now its like I wake up stil thinking everyday is new but then something bad happens again and whatever was bad yesterday combines with todays crap. I know thats confusing but its the way I feel. Anywho, I guess the only real way to overcome this crap is medication/ and thats the part I'm scared about. I've already tried so many diffrent drugs, none of them worked. I remember the anxiety of feeling like I'm not getting better. I kinda think the drugs don't work. Maybe I'm not really bipolar, maybe I'm just fucked up.