hmm

[neverwasyours]

A random day, full of waking up late and having a hell like day at work. But most days are hell like days cause I AM at work. I want to paint actually; I have the itch to make something and I have no ideas like usual. I keep looking at the odd shit wigshop has made with Photoshop and its giving me the urge to make something odd. But the real problem is that I haven’t created any actual art in a long time, and I'm not sure if it even if it’s a mental block at all. I remember a few years ago when I would gladly do drugs and drink to create art cause I thought that is what made good art, but that was just a lie I kept telling myself, it was a excuse to drink. I hate that I have to convince myself of something higher to justify my fuckedup behavior. And since I don’t drink as much or do drugs anymore, I don’t really make that much art anymore. There has to be a way of sparking my love of art again, but it has to be something besides photography. Or maybe in the end its just me actually, maybe I don’t know what the fuck I'm talking about or maybe its just a passing fad, but I wish I had that passion I once had.

Semi-halfass goals
-Draw in my journal every day
-paint on of the 2 5’x3’ canvases
-photoshop!
-take more photos


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