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so i have been trying to find a job since i got back, but i haven't been successful. i'm taking a physics class right now, but thats about it. it's pretty boring here without working. i have been working straight out of high school. its weird not having a job now. i feel pretty useless now.
so besides that i don't know what i'm doing. i'm trying to make important decisions about my life, however things change so quickly, day by day, hour by hour, i can never come to a lasting conclusion. i can say i miss Japan so much and i want to return as soon as i can. this is one thing i know i want to do. i will do everything in my power to live there again. it was the greatest time in my life, and besides certain times in childhood, the happiest. i felt this inner happiness and peace that i have never known before. and even when standing, surrounded by skinny, black haired, brown eyed people, i never felt like i belonged more anytime else in my life. don't take me wrong, i don't hate my home here, michigan will always be my hometown, but i have also always felt like it shouldn't stay my home forever. i don't know who i have told but one of my greatest fears is that i will never make it out of michigan, let alone southeastern michigan. what am i going to do? how am i going to do this?
so besides that i don't know what i'm doing. i'm trying to make important decisions about my life, however things change so quickly, day by day, hour by hour, i can never come to a lasting conclusion. i can say i miss Japan so much and i want to return as soon as i can. this is one thing i know i want to do. i will do everything in my power to live there again. it was the greatest time in my life, and besides certain times in childhood, the happiest. i felt this inner happiness and peace that i have never known before. and even when standing, surrounded by skinny, black haired, brown eyed people, i never felt like i belonged more anytime else in my life. don't take me wrong, i don't hate my home here, michigan will always be my hometown, but i have also always felt like it shouldn't stay my home forever. i don't know who i have told but one of my greatest fears is that i will never make it out of michigan, let alone southeastern michigan. what am i going to do? how am i going to do this?