sing for the moment.
yesterday was horrible. I'm not even gonna go into it. today is just lame. I hate that I cant sleep in on the weekend. I woke up at 6am. I have to spit out that stupid essay for crook today. It pisses me off that I couldnt do much in 1st period yesterday. tomorrow I'm going dirt biking. what's sad is that I know I have a death wish. I want to crash and hurt myself tomorrow. I know it'll cause me tremendous pain but I just want it. I know I wont go out and crash on purpose so dont even think about telling me to be safe. because I will. But I still want to hurt. My father is an asshole. I established that around the age of 8 and he continues to prove himself to me. My mom broke a tooth on wednesday. shes going to the dentist today. she and warren have been fighting a lot. she told me yesterday that if she was given the chance, she'd move back to canada. that hurt like you wouldnt believe. anyways I dont know. everything just seems to be pissing me off. I know what happened yesterday wasnt just the usual. I know theres something wrong but let's pretend there isnt anything wrong, okay.