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[.Saturday.]
My friend Ant came down from plymouth on saturday and spent the day with me,holly,lily,freya and kat, and later on we met up with rob in the bowling alley.
we wondered etc, had booze, was fun.
Kat,holly and freya had to go,and ant and kat kissed before she got on the bus, it was sweet.
i txt matt to ask him if me n lily n ant cud come n see him coz it was cold and we had nothing to do, so he said we could come over, but like ten minutes after we got there matt had to go to his mums for tea *he lives in a shared house*
so it was just me,lily ant, and jen+nathan*my friends that live with matt*, we had some booze and solid etc.
and matt gave me permission to go into his room and watch dvds or whatever, so we all relocate upstairs and watch Cruel intentions, then vicky and jemma arrive, lol we watched abit of x-men, and then me and lily walked ant to the station and said our goodbyes.
Got back to the house and matt was home, and kinda drunk. me and lily had to go at this point, so matt managed to walk us to the door and say goodbye, he wine smelt really nice so i asked if it taste nice, and he just started kissing me, he always seems to kiss me when hes been drinking.
i gets home and i watch the rest of "taking lives" with my dad as we started watching it the previous night but he started to fall asleep then i went bed.
[.sunday.]
did fuck all actually.
katie had a go at me saying that im nno friend of hers, and ive done soemthing but she wouldnt tell me what ive supposedly done, ok i went on 2 dates with her ex, but she knows about that, and she likes my ex so, and like she was saying that im no friend of hers and never have been, im always fucking there for her when she needs someone i always talk to her etc, and she always seems to have a go at me and find an excuse to hate me, and sometimes she moans about having no friends, no wonder if she treats them all like she treats me, and after this long arguement she still wouldnt tell me what ive done, fucking immature cow. she really annoys me, she needs to grow up.
[.Monday.]
my friend rachael went to see rooster on friday and she bought me back a keyring, soo sweet of her, it was her firsst gig, aww. hehe
i sorted out my ema so i should got my bonus this week and the £30 ema i missed out on,so thats pretty cool.
freya asked matt if he enjoyed saturday and he said he did.
vicky was having her birthday party at this pub, but its closed on saturday so we're gonna have the party at matts coz he said we cud.
going plymouth on saturday and cinema on friday.
not much else happened today actually, :(
oh i txt matt because i thought he was ignoring me, and this was his reply...
"im not ignoring you,its just, i cant blieve im saying this, i like you as a friend, i really enjoy spending time with you, and im always glad to see you. i really want to be your friend and i can understand if you hate me now but thats how i feel...im sorry"
it kinda upset me, but im glad he was honest with me, fuck i hate being lonely and im really loathing rejection. :(
im just sitting here now listening to music and trying to not think about matt.
My friend Ant came down from plymouth on saturday and spent the day with me,holly,lily,freya and kat, and later on we met up with rob in the bowling alley.
we wondered etc, had booze, was fun.
Kat,holly and freya had to go,and ant and kat kissed before she got on the bus, it was sweet.
i txt matt to ask him if me n lily n ant cud come n see him coz it was cold and we had nothing to do, so he said we could come over, but like ten minutes after we got there matt had to go to his mums for tea *he lives in a shared house*
so it was just me,lily ant, and jen+nathan*my friends that live with matt*, we had some booze and solid etc.
and matt gave me permission to go into his room and watch dvds or whatever, so we all relocate upstairs and watch Cruel intentions, then vicky and jemma arrive, lol we watched abit of x-men, and then me and lily walked ant to the station and said our goodbyes.
Got back to the house and matt was home, and kinda drunk. me and lily had to go at this point, so matt managed to walk us to the door and say goodbye, he wine smelt really nice so i asked if it taste nice, and he just started kissing me, he always seems to kiss me when hes been drinking.
i gets home and i watch the rest of "taking lives" with my dad as we started watching it the previous night but he started to fall asleep then i went bed.
[.sunday.]
did fuck all actually.
katie had a go at me saying that im nno friend of hers, and ive done soemthing but she wouldnt tell me what ive supposedly done, ok i went on 2 dates with her ex, but she knows about that, and she likes my ex so, and like she was saying that im no friend of hers and never have been, im always fucking there for her when she needs someone i always talk to her etc, and she always seems to have a go at me and find an excuse to hate me, and sometimes she moans about having no friends, no wonder if she treats them all like she treats me, and after this long arguement she still wouldnt tell me what ive done, fucking immature cow. she really annoys me, she needs to grow up.
[.Monday.]
my friend rachael went to see rooster on friday and she bought me back a keyring, soo sweet of her, it was her firsst gig, aww. hehe
i sorted out my ema so i should got my bonus this week and the £30 ema i missed out on,so thats pretty cool.
freya asked matt if he enjoyed saturday and he said he did.
vicky was having her birthday party at this pub, but its closed on saturday so we're gonna have the party at matts coz he said we cud.
going plymouth on saturday and cinema on friday.
not much else happened today actually, :(
oh i txt matt because i thought he was ignoring me, and this was his reply...
"im not ignoring you,its just, i cant blieve im saying this, i like you as a friend, i really enjoy spending time with you, and im always glad to see you. i really want to be your friend and i can understand if you hate me now but thats how i feel...im sorry"
it kinda upset me, but im glad he was honest with me, fuck i hate being lonely and im really loathing rejection. :(
im just sitting here now listening to music and trying to not think about matt.