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[neversole]

I miss Adam and when I was happy all the time. Frustrated with school and life right now. The only place I feel happy is work. Obviously kids are my passion. Haven't cried like this in awhile. I'm feeling such a mixture of sureness about the rest of my life, and uncertainty about who I will spend it with and where I'll be. I'll be with kids, that's no doubt. Will I be in Europe or Bremerton, Bellingham or New Zealand? Will I be with Adam like I feel I should be or will I meet someone who makes me feel even better than Adam did? Is that possible?

Neah Bay tomorrow night to clear my mind.