dreamland
Last night, my dream involved finding myself in the past. There must have been some sort of time machine. I was at a rave with Travis. I didn't know what to do.
The movies always say that you can't mess around with the past because you can alter the future. But, I still felt uncomfortable cheating, in a dream, in the past. So, I just held him for a while.
At first I didn't know if he was his future self or his self back then, but he gave me this look of loss and regret
(the same look he gave me when we said goodbye, after that time we had coffee, after that time it was over)
and I knew he knew too.
So, we just held each other for a while
in silence
in the darkened corner of the room full of music and light.
And then I woke up
with this consuming sense of calm
that has followed me into the afternoon.
The movies always say that you can't mess around with the past because you can alter the future. But, I still felt uncomfortable cheating, in a dream, in the past. So, I just held him for a while.
At first I didn't know if he was his future self or his self back then, but he gave me this look of loss and regret
(the same look he gave me when we said goodbye, after that time we had coffee, after that time it was over)
and I knew he knew too.
So, we just held each other for a while
in silence
in the darkened corner of the room full of music and light.
And then I woke up
with this consuming sense of calm
that has followed me into the afternoon.