drawing equals happy... drooooooool
drawing does equal happy for me. even if i havent slept in a long time. actually, ive been sleeping, but not at normal times. i sleep for like 4 hours, then stay up for 30, then sleep for 6, then stay up for 20, then sleep for 4 again, and then stay up for like 40 hours and then it finally catches up with me and i fucking lose it and sleep for like 16 hours straight.
i cant fucking believe how little i draw. i should be drawing every day, for at least 5 hours a day. shit, i have no job right now. i should take advantage of that. i should be turning out a comic book every month. i should be drawing huge wonderful compositions. i should... i dont know... i should do something. i wanna be grand. i wanna do something that makes me step back and say "huh, thats pretty fuckin neat. i did that..." but instead i pace back and forth, dont sleep, play video games, and wish i spent my time more wisely.
i fucking hate livejournal. for that matter i hate the internet. but you know, its my biggest outlet for socialization. despite popular belief its not all roses being antisocial. no, it gets down right lonely sometimes. ah, but fuck it. who cares.
i ate pizza tonight. i like pizza.
so ive decided to force myself to spend more time on each drawing that i start. and to finish the drawings that i start. cause i should be doing that. im getting sick and tired of looking at other peoples stuff, all amazing stuff, posted various places on the internet, all completed and finished, and thinking to myself after looking at it "i sure wish i could have a portfolio of completed work like that". well fuck wishing. ive been wishing for things my whole life. even my mean, angry, racist dad always said "wish in one hand, shit in the other, and see which one fills up first". i should really stop with the wishing and start with the doing. time to activate.
guy would laugh at that one.
i still hate livejournal. but i hate not being in touch with my friends even more. and i hate wishing. im gonna go to santa fe this week and see when classes start. i need to learn me some stuff. and i need to apply that stuff. to... something. i dont know.
fuck im bored.
ok, since its only 5:30am i guess ill go draw some more. cant sleep yet after all. im gonna eat a carrot now.
i sure do miss count duckula. how could you not love a vegetarian vampire duck from transylvania? unless of course youre one of those cyborg bunny monsters...
... are you one of those cyborg bunny monsters??? huh???
i cant fucking believe how little i draw. i should be drawing every day, for at least 5 hours a day. shit, i have no job right now. i should take advantage of that. i should be turning out a comic book every month. i should be drawing huge wonderful compositions. i should... i dont know... i should do something. i wanna be grand. i wanna do something that makes me step back and say "huh, thats pretty fuckin neat. i did that..." but instead i pace back and forth, dont sleep, play video games, and wish i spent my time more wisely.
i fucking hate livejournal. for that matter i hate the internet. but you know, its my biggest outlet for socialization. despite popular belief its not all roses being antisocial. no, it gets down right lonely sometimes. ah, but fuck it. who cares.
i ate pizza tonight. i like pizza.
so ive decided to force myself to spend more time on each drawing that i start. and to finish the drawings that i start. cause i should be doing that. im getting sick and tired of looking at other peoples stuff, all amazing stuff, posted various places on the internet, all completed and finished, and thinking to myself after looking at it "i sure wish i could have a portfolio of completed work like that". well fuck wishing. ive been wishing for things my whole life. even my mean, angry, racist dad always said "wish in one hand, shit in the other, and see which one fills up first". i should really stop with the wishing and start with the doing. time to activate.
guy would laugh at that one.
i still hate livejournal. but i hate not being in touch with my friends even more. and i hate wishing. im gonna go to santa fe this week and see when classes start. i need to learn me some stuff. and i need to apply that stuff. to... something. i dont know.
fuck im bored.
ok, since its only 5:30am i guess ill go draw some more. cant sleep yet after all. im gonna eat a carrot now.
i sure do miss count duckula. how could you not love a vegetarian vampire duck from transylvania? unless of course youre one of those cyborg bunny monsters...
... are you one of those cyborg bunny monsters??? huh???