on the way home...
At the moment I am sitting at 42st waiting for the subway. Today was a
good day to be honest. Looked into some important things regarding my
future and thought about a lot that I needed to think over. Wondered
about susan, as always, and thought about how we planned to get rich
together. Wondered if when I get rich if she would even be around to see
it.
I Got some intell I needed about some shit I'm mailing out and
considered if I even should at this point. I guess I'm honor bound to do
it. I have no problem with the idea of doing it. Just wonder if it would
be right is all.
Life is interesting for the most part. I'm off on thursday and hopefully
I can get my glasses/contacts after I see lisa. I also wonder how long
is too long to be sad over a breakup. Not that I want to date. But I
tend to get stuck on shit like this.
My train just came. Mmmm air conditioning.
How the fuck am I suppost to juggle all my emotions and be productive
and survive and also press forward AND not lose focus without settling
my problems in the usual negitive way or becoming a drug user like I use
to.
Here is my stop. So I must leave you. But know that in this ride, I have
finally admitted to myself that I am human and wish for human things.
That I am not a animal, and never was.
-Luis
*****add on after i got home-i hate when brendan comments/talks to susan. shows he never cared and also shows he never wants to be able to fix shit with me.*****
good day to be honest. Looked into some important things regarding my
future and thought about a lot that I needed to think over. Wondered
about susan, as always, and thought about how we planned to get rich
together. Wondered if when I get rich if she would even be around to see
it.
I Got some intell I needed about some shit I'm mailing out and
considered if I even should at this point. I guess I'm honor bound to do
it. I have no problem with the idea of doing it. Just wonder if it would
be right is all.
Life is interesting for the most part. I'm off on thursday and hopefully
I can get my glasses/contacts after I see lisa. I also wonder how long
is too long to be sad over a breakup. Not that I want to date. But I
tend to get stuck on shit like this.
My train just came. Mmmm air conditioning.
How the fuck am I suppost to juggle all my emotions and be productive
and survive and also press forward AND not lose focus without settling
my problems in the usual negitive way or becoming a drug user like I use
to.
Here is my stop. So I must leave you. But know that in this ride, I have
finally admitted to myself that I am human and wish for human things.
That I am not a animal, and never was.
-Luis
*****add on after i got home-i hate when brendan comments/talks to susan. shows he never cared and also shows he never wants to be able to fix shit with me.*****