Lights In The Sky
Lately, I've been in somewhat of a better mood. My wife and I had a bit of a rough patch for a few days but that seems to be behind us. However, I still find myself having a hard time sleeping. Two days ago, my shipment of melatonin arrived and I was very happy. A few people out here have been taking it and say it works wonders. Well, after 3 days of taking it I have to disagree. Maybe it's just my body is used to more hardcore stuff. After all, I was a pill junkie for quite a while and I've had a trip to the ER because of my 'habit'. This stuff just doesn't work. I take 4 pills and nothing. It takes a while for me to get to sleep and it seems when I wake up is when I'm tired the most. I plan on going to the shoppette tonight to get some nyquil. This has to stop.
With no sleep, my mind tends to run at a state of paranoia. I mean, I've had some bad feelings lately but just throw in the whole no sleep thing and I'm downright going crazy at times. I basically keep to myself however. There's just nobody out here to speak to because the people who are married are either cheating on their spouse or getting/planning a divorce. It makes me sick to be surrounded by such constant negativity. I could never imagine even thinking of leaving Miranda or cheating on her. The thought of her doing that to me just kills me and I know she wouldn't. The people here make it seem like it's nothing. Maybe that's how they handle it.
I really flat out dislike being away from her. I really do. Knowing that a year of our marriage and a year of us together is gone really upsets me. We've done well so far. Sure, we've had our fights and we've had our good times. One thing about her and I is that we always seem to pull through tough times. That's such a great quality to have in a relationship although I'd like to not to have to go through many more tough times. I can't wait to get home and have her again.
I wish I knew if I was on her mind.
She's my everything.
With no sleep, my mind tends to run at a state of paranoia. I mean, I've had some bad feelings lately but just throw in the whole no sleep thing and I'm downright going crazy at times. I basically keep to myself however. There's just nobody out here to speak to because the people who are married are either cheating on their spouse or getting/planning a divorce. It makes me sick to be surrounded by such constant negativity. I could never imagine even thinking of leaving Miranda or cheating on her. The thought of her doing that to me just kills me and I know she wouldn't. The people here make it seem like it's nothing. Maybe that's how they handle it.
I really flat out dislike being away from her. I really do. Knowing that a year of our marriage and a year of us together is gone really upsets me. We've done well so far. Sure, we've had our fights and we've had our good times. One thing about her and I is that we always seem to pull through tough times. That's such a great quality to have in a relationship although I'd like to not to have to go through many more tough times. I can't wait to get home and have her again.
I wish I knew if I was on her mind.
She's my everything.